Early morning anxiety alarm
I mentioned how exhausted I was last night. I did read for a bit before bed, but went to sleep about 10 PM. I was out pretty quickly. Alas, I didn't stay out, because at 1-something I awoke with a mild cold sweat and an uneasy feeling. Could be anxiety, could be a heart attack. With my track record, signs point to anxiety. I went to the bathroom, then put on the anxiety podcast I listen to, while lying on my old comforter on the floor. I don't know what it is about lying on the floor that seems to help, but it does. That, and deep breathing. Over and over. Positivity in, negativity out. Eventually, when the clock read 3-something and I hadn't fallen asleep, but felt significantly better, I returned to my bed and did drift off. When my alarm went off about 6, I got up, turned it off, and promptly fell asleep again until about 6:45.
I did feel overall lighter than I have at work, despite not having a great night's sleep. That's not to say I haven't had that stressful feeling today, but it was better. It was a bit chaotic at times and I didn't get as much done as I'd hoped, but it was a pretty good day, and it helps that it's now the weekend, so two days off, and I wandered around Walmart tonight and picked up some gifts, and things are looking up. That's what I need. But also to relax.
I did feel overall lighter than I have at work, despite not having a great night's sleep. That's not to say I haven't had that stressful feeling today, but it was better. It was a bit chaotic at times and I didn't get as much done as I'd hoped, but it was a pretty good day, and it helps that it's now the weekend, so two days off, and I wandered around Walmart tonight and picked up some gifts, and things are looking up. That's what I need. But also to relax.