long time no update
i miss you guys, and sometimes it feels like you are in a whole new world. i feel like most of you don't really know me anymore. i've changed a LOT in the past few months. so in case you were wondering (and even if you weren't), this is who i am:
my name is jennifer, most of my friends call me jen. you can call me whatever you want.
i like pretty things. my favorite color is purple, and i also like things that sparkle.
i have a kitty, my son logan named her pemmay. he tried to name her after his aunt's cat who is named after some star wars character, but he couldn't pronounce it, so we named the kitty pemmay. i tried to pick a real name, but he refused to call her anything else.
i'm going to uncg to get my degree in human development and family studies with a concentration in birth to kindergarten licensure so that i can be a preschool teacher.
in my spare time, i like to listen to music. i like all kinds of music. i am expecting a jewish reggae cd to come in the mail any day now. you should check out matisyahu. his music is so powerful. my favorite band is sanctus real.
i also like to write books for my son and i to read together at bedtime. recently, i started adapting the bible into brief story books written in language that young children and toddlers can understand.
bedtime is my favorite time of day because logan and i get to cuddle, and because it is the time of day when you can forget all the bad things that happened that day and welcome all the good things that are going to happen the next day.
i love people. i want to live a life of service, especially for children and families. sometimes being a parent is scary, most of the time you have no clue what you are doing, and having someone there to hold you hand and tell you that you are doing a good job can be the biggest help imaginable.
the first 20 years of my life were an uphill struggle, and i was falling fast. but in the past few months, God has lifted me up over the hill. i may still have trials, and i may still need help, but i have hope now. i can do it because God will help me. all i want out of life is to love God and to love people, and if i can do that, i know everything will be okay.
this is my favorite song:
Beauty from pain - superchick
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here I am at the end of me
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to your promise
There will be a dawn
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
and this is who i am, take it or leave it.
my name is jennifer, most of my friends call me jen. you can call me whatever you want.
i like pretty things. my favorite color is purple, and i also like things that sparkle.
i have a kitty, my son logan named her pemmay. he tried to name her after his aunt's cat who is named after some star wars character, but he couldn't pronounce it, so we named the kitty pemmay. i tried to pick a real name, but he refused to call her anything else.
i'm going to uncg to get my degree in human development and family studies with a concentration in birth to kindergarten licensure so that i can be a preschool teacher.
in my spare time, i like to listen to music. i like all kinds of music. i am expecting a jewish reggae cd to come in the mail any day now. you should check out matisyahu. his music is so powerful. my favorite band is sanctus real.
i also like to write books for my son and i to read together at bedtime. recently, i started adapting the bible into brief story books written in language that young children and toddlers can understand.
bedtime is my favorite time of day because logan and i get to cuddle, and because it is the time of day when you can forget all the bad things that happened that day and welcome all the good things that are going to happen the next day.
i love people. i want to live a life of service, especially for children and families. sometimes being a parent is scary, most of the time you have no clue what you are doing, and having someone there to hold you hand and tell you that you are doing a good job can be the biggest help imaginable.
the first 20 years of my life were an uphill struggle, and i was falling fast. but in the past few months, God has lifted me up over the hill. i may still have trials, and i may still need help, but i have hope now. i can do it because God will help me. all i want out of life is to love God and to love people, and if i can do that, i know everything will be okay.
this is my favorite song:
Beauty from pain - superchick
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here I am at the end of me
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to your promise
There will be a dawn
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
and this is who i am, take it or leave it.