i'm feeling much better

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thanks to all the help from my friends, especially josh. he has been talking to me a lot, and last night i was upset/lonely after going to the funeral, so he invited me over and we cooked spaghetti and talked about how great alix is :). i love her so much. and because of alix, i finally figured out what God wants me to do with my life. i knew i wanted to start some kind of non-profit company to help people, but i didn't know what kind. so i've been praying and praying and praying for God to tell me what he wants from me, and no answer came. but i tried to stay faithful and remember that He would tell me in due time. well, due time came this morning in the shower! during the service wednesday one of the pastors was talking about how we should remember alix in our actions and when someone asks why we do what we do (liking helping the elderly, etc.) we should say "because someone i once knew taught me how to love." and after the service alix's friend shannon and i were talking about alix and our friend joe who died a few years earlier and she was saying that when joe died no one learned anything from it or changed anything they did, they just went on with their lives like nothing changed, and she didn't want that to happen this time and she hoped that people would really remember her, and i totally agree! so in the shower this morning (that's my thinking/talking to God time), i was trying to think of ways to remember her and honor her. and i figured it out!! alix always used to watch logan for me and offer to babysit when i had to work or just wanted to go out with friends and stuff liek that because she knew i couldn't afford to pay a sitter and it always meant a lot to me so what ia m going to do is start a non profit when i graduate that's a daycare/preschool for single parents who are trying to go back to school/get their life back together. and i'm going to name it after her! :) the alexandra grace jones foundation or something.

i'm so excited!!!

praise God!!!