Wow my summer is alright, but sucks
Wow.. It seems like no one has time for me anymore. Maybe they never did and I'm just realising it now, because it's summer vacation. But it seems so worse. Apryl NEVER talks to me anymore. It's always her boyfriend. I have no problem that she's fallen in love and wants to be with him, but I want to spend time with her.. I thought she was a best friend? I guess I better not think anymore. Ceci... I miss her soooo much.. I went up to the mall the 18th expecting her to be there, she wasn't there. I was heartbroken. well, I saw Fell and stuff, but I wanted to see Ceci most of all. I also went up there to see Jessie. I spent that whole weekend at Jessie's. And Ceci spent Friday night at Apryl's then Apryl went up there. I haven't talked to Ceci since for ever. Ann. Yeah, we talk. Yeah we hang out. But it seems like she's drifting away. That's the last thing I want to happen... I lost Britteny, I lost Sara, I lost Red. Let's see.. That bothers me, but not that much.. I miss people from school the most.. I was so happy there. You have no idea. That was my Heaven. As much as most people are like "Aghhh School sucks.. Blahhh. Daaaa dee duhhh... I hate school.." I loved school, okay. The people there. They were so nice, so accepting, so perfect for me to be around. I had so much fun there. Now I do nothing... Like I said.. No one has time for me anymore. I hardly talk to any of my friends from school anymore... I talk to Morgan once-in-awhile... Lets see.. I think that's pretty much all.. I talk to Addison sometims.. I talk to Cait sometimes.. You just don't understand.. I love school and people there. Oh boy. I need a girlfriend.. Or a good friend that will drive me places. Just to hang out.. Like with them. Or something. I need to get away from here, before I kick someone in their teeth... Lets see... Friends I wish I could hang out with.. Apryl, Ceci, Holli, Alicia, Jessie, Morgan, Addison, Cait, Kayla T., Nikki, Jill, Fell, and so much more people. Ughhh!! People I with I hung out with more is mostly just Kayla-Ann... I don't know.. And Amanda Sly. I just met her, but she's so awesome and I really like her as a friend so much. She means a lot to me (As a friend nothing more)And their boyfriends are so great. Adam and John. Even though they have their mood swings, mostly John, they're awesome. But I don't know.. Blah. I might be getting a job with Kayla. I hope she doesn't mind. But I really need a job.. It's going to be at Harry's downtown. Joy. I really want to. It'll mostly likely be 4-11PM, 5 days a week or something. I don't know.. I'll probably get 6.75 an hour. I hope I get the job. I have a job interveiw Sunday at 2... Hmm.. I'm just wishing and hoping. I need money... I want a successful future. I don't want to be 18, or maybe even older and say "Aww, I wish I saved my money up earlier for this and that and this and that." I don't know.. Yeah. Bye.
<3<3Amanda<3Moore<3<3