Sep 24, 2006 18:58
so..
i am officially trapped in a small dusty corner of my brain. i can't say that i am upset be here, but i must say that is going to make my life more interesting over the next few weeks. screw the ethical dilemmas and bring on the nanobots. that's my major concern for the moment. i just want something visceral again. some days i wish these things wouldn't happen, but the rest of the time i wonder at how life isn't just that.
there's a spot right inside my that i just know is broke. and i know that no doctor will ever know or agree, but i can feel it. maybe one day i'll work up the nerve to fix it. but that might change things. and why let go when you can hold on?
why do you know how to kill when you learn to save a life? why is that really the only dicotic that works? it is annoying. mostly cause i know neither, but one day i might learn one or another.
that reminds me, one day i hope to be a psychological heavyweight. like start up the Second Foundation heavyweight. like be hard candy. like i want to do stuff. or just be able. be enabled, not necessarily active. it's really cause i am nosey. but that's ok. so, again, fuck ethics, nanobots are cooler.so this small dusty corner is just big enough for me. and it really annoys me sometimes when others cram in. cause then i just kind of go ape-shitt.
eh, i'm just annoyed and probably hungry. so in review: nanobots= yes. ethics= no.