people, you need a grain of salt for this one
so here is where my trip takes one of two courses: the insanely happy, overly excited never coming back to america route or the pitiful, hateful, and homesick whimpering route. i think that this will sound sound like one but really be neither. i am not having the best time of my life here, but i expected that. it isn't horrible and i don't think america is the best, but for me it is easier and i like that. i miss that. i am not really homesick despite it all. if i couldn't go back it would be ok. but i am happy that i get to go back. and let me just say this, the people who are making my trip a pain in the ass, no fun, and all-around shitty are Americans. Well, Americans, Brits, and one New Zealander asshole. i just really don't like 95% of the people around here (they are mostly spoiled, rich, and hellbent on getting as trashed as possible every night). the few cool people are AWESOME but realistically i will never see/talk to them ever again and i see them so rarely as it is. so i spend all day with idiots and chinese people. and sadly, like i predicted again, they do not get "phillip." i am not funny in china. they stare. they blink. they stare. i've had like 4 people laugh, and it was super obvious and they were fairly fluent. the rest (3000 students) just stare. and i can't handle it. i am that funny guy and i might crack if something doesn't change. well, not really. but i am sick (again) and am a prickly state of mind.
but seriously i am useless here. this is like anytime i go anywhere. i am that one kid not in the group. Americans are more immensely clicky than i realized. first day, three groups of three people and me. and for everyone who knows me, take it how you will. i suppose you all have different feelings on how i act in groups, but i definitely feel on the outside. all the other people here are old or young, beautiful, rich (and in fancy schools). being as i feel old, am poor, and not so hott, i am totally not cool enough. it just makes me so mad... oh well.
i am sick from dinner and am going to go to bed at 7:26. that is how i am right now. come on people.
i will update again when i am in a better mood i swear!!
:P
but seriously i am useless here. this is like anytime i go anywhere. i am that one kid not in the group. Americans are more immensely clicky than i realized. first day, three groups of three people and me. and for everyone who knows me, take it how you will. i suppose you all have different feelings on how i act in groups, but i definitely feel on the outside. all the other people here are old or young, beautiful, rich (and in fancy schools). being as i feel old, am poor, and not so hott, i am totally not cool enough. it just makes me so mad... oh well.
i am sick from dinner and am going to go to bed at 7:26. that is how i am right now. come on people.
i will update again when i am in a better mood i swear!!
:P