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so i posted in that class again. and i think that this time i may have signed my own failure in the class. you judge it. i want to say more by the way, but i am full and burnt out and don't care anymore. and i will post a real update oneday. i promise.
So I have felt a little aloof from the class of late, but I think that
this last class has pushed me over some edge.
I have always felt a bit outside, a bit different (though I find out
more and more that I am not) in my thinking of certain things, but now
I feel totally separate from several people, sadly yourself included.
I think the thing that you would find most upsetting is that I am
happy for it.
I understand that I am not as hyper sensitive to cultural issues as
some people are. My IFI tells me that, but it also tells me that I
have resolved 90% of the issues I could have. But I feel that what
happened in class on Tuesday was the thing that pushed me over the edge. The class has always pretended to stay within the realm of Academia, which allowed for some respect of opinions. But that has ended apparently, and with it any attempt on my part in the class. When you jumped in and attacked Brandy for her comment--which I hope someone else mentioned, because several of us talked about it (though I am likely the only one dumb enough to mention it)-- the class ended for me. I agree with her. I disagree with you. I feel that what happened in the class was so outrageous and wrong and (as silly as it seems now) unexpected. Part of me knew it was just a matter of time, or the right subject matter, before this happened, but now that it has I am very disappointed.
This isn't some safehaven of culture, this isn't some beautiful arena to explore other people. This is a class where people who are too mainstream sit in class wondering when the shit is gonna hit the fan.
All I have to say is that I am pretty much done with the class. And if I have to I'll give myself zeros for the rest of the semester, or better for me just stop going, if I have to, but believe me I am so tempted to just ride it out and give myself a perfect score with less though than I have already put into it. In fact, I probably will, I don't believe in anything enough to screw myself this bad over some upjumped liberals. Wow. I think I have just taken the first step down the path to becoming a conservative Republic. And it looks to me like I am heading toward A&F to buy as much insensitive, over-priced parafanelia as possible.
And as I've said before, I really don't want to talk about. We've both thrown down now apparently, and I don't feel like playing the game. You think I am horrid and I won't listen to some lala when I know that you are just going to think that I some ungrateful white kid. I don't need another person talking to me and pretending to care while they hate me on the inside, I have friends for that.
So I have felt a little aloof from the class of late, but I think that
this last class has pushed me over some edge.
I have always felt a bit outside, a bit different (though I find out
more and more that I am not) in my thinking of certain things, but now
I feel totally separate from several people, sadly yourself included.
I think the thing that you would find most upsetting is that I am
happy for it.
I understand that I am not as hyper sensitive to cultural issues as
some people are. My IFI tells me that, but it also tells me that I
have resolved 90% of the issues I could have. But I feel that what
happened in class on Tuesday was the thing that pushed me over the edge. The class has always pretended to stay within the realm of Academia, which allowed for some respect of opinions. But that has ended apparently, and with it any attempt on my part in the class. When you jumped in and attacked Brandy for her comment--which I hope someone else mentioned, because several of us talked about it (though I am likely the only one dumb enough to mention it)-- the class ended for me. I agree with her. I disagree with you. I feel that what happened in the class was so outrageous and wrong and (as silly as it seems now) unexpected. Part of me knew it was just a matter of time, or the right subject matter, before this happened, but now that it has I am very disappointed.
This isn't some safehaven of culture, this isn't some beautiful arena to explore other people. This is a class where people who are too mainstream sit in class wondering when the shit is gonna hit the fan.
All I have to say is that I am pretty much done with the class. And if I have to I'll give myself zeros for the rest of the semester, or better for me just stop going, if I have to, but believe me I am so tempted to just ride it out and give myself a perfect score with less though than I have already put into it. In fact, I probably will, I don't believe in anything enough to screw myself this bad over some upjumped liberals. Wow. I think I have just taken the first step down the path to becoming a conservative Republic. And it looks to me like I am heading toward A&F to buy as much insensitive, over-priced parafanelia as possible.
And as I've said before, I really don't want to talk about. We've both thrown down now apparently, and I don't feel like playing the game. You think I am horrid and I won't listen to some lala when I know that you are just going to think that I some ungrateful white kid. I don't need another person talking to me and pretending to care while they hate me on the inside, I have friends for that.