a long ass time since last update
well its been an extremly long time since last update but yea i have been extremly busy and don't have the time to much anymore i like work everyday and when i don't work i spend time with krystal because i feel bad i don't see her as much anymore, it is also nto a good thing to not spend tiem wiht your girlfriend so yea guys try and spend as much tiem with your girlfriends as possable but don't over crowd them because they still do love their space. so yea me and krystal have been dateing fro over 4 mounths now and now almost 5 this is the longest realashion ship i have ever been in its scary bcause i do not want to screw anything up, yea i have been crabby lately but i think its because i am jsut scared somethigns goignt o happen and screw it all up for us and we will end up braking up and i will be really cruched i know i have like cause a lot of stress on krystal cause of how i have been treating her and other people i know i have done this but some people jsut need to know i am like in a really good realshion ship and one of the longest ones i have done so i am sorry if anyone thinks i am just pissed off at them its jsut i feel scared or something, its just i have never felt this way about anyone and i kow if i lose her soem way then i lose my self and i know i will lose my self i will preatty much go down the drain and thats not what i can afford i am really trying in life now since i have soemthing to look for, krystal give me the inspireiherachion needed to do what my goals are i may seem like i am not trying but i really am i am trying to improve my studying habits but 10% undstade of 0% lol but yea she makes me want to go for my goal. this year from last year have been differnt because last year i only set the goal of becomeing a cop at that was it but from this year i set my goal of being a cop but joining the army for M.P. and then after a few years i will go into my lawenforcement caeere and then when i am in the army i get 4 yers of touitiona nd i am goign to use taht to go into criminal law and then also becomeing a cheif and also to take calsses on computers and learn more then already know now i will also study massageing too i will master in criminal law at frist with becomeing a cheif and then go into mastering the computer stuff and also massageing. i will minor in the comutper class with the criminal law and then i will take along wiht those the cheif and massageing class but then i do nto get the tution i will only take the computer and criminal law classes and then i will save up money to take the cheif and massageing class and then master in those and once i master in those i will try my hardest to put my knowleage to everything its needed for, and if in the future i retiare from law enforcement i can then become a cheif with also a bussiness in massageing and physical thyrapy. everythign i do will nto be this little shit like everyone thinks i will do i will try untill i feel i can;t not go on i will never give up unless itsm chosice not the grade even if i fail i will retry the class but once i hit collage i iwll be way differnt i will not take life as such a joke as i do now i will know that i am paying for schooling and i can't fuck up i will study my ass off when i am nto working and shit so i will try hard in collage for a fact and i still am a little not shure wehre i want to go i am not shure if i wnat to go to oakland or macomb or a school that has all the class i want but yea its a hard decison at that i am going to start to look at them scerisaly now too its jsut i wnat to be one of those people that are looked appon by many people and say dam i wish i could be him or dam i wish i would have done what he has done, it would be so great to do that like every day i really really think about life and how so many people take it for grandite and you shouldn't you need to really focse on what is important in your life, right now the main thigns in my life that are impornat are krystal school and work those are it idc that much about hangout with friends only if i have the time to or try and make the time to, but the reason why i said krystal as an importants to me is becasue i really do love here uea i know its only been a few months of us going out but i have gotten to know her like i have gottent o know my self and what i wanted to do in life, shes someoen that makes me look ahead unstead of right now . if everyone had soemone one that could do that from them then we would have the best differnt kinds of races in are world but no one can seem to get along if its not white people calling the black people niggers or even just hateing on them its bull i am sick of everyone just talking behide eachothers back if someoenhas somethignt o say about soemone else jsut tell it to their face it get to be a pain in the ass if people are talkign about everyone behind their back grr but yea i will msotly jsut try and stay on task and do wat i have to do to graduate and go to collage. but ok now on to write something to krystal
Krystal- hey baby! i miss you so much its not even funny like half of the time i am at work all i want to do is be with you unstaed of their, jsut it makes me really sad that i can not jsut wrap my arms around you at that time and go to sleep. Baby everytime i stair in your eyes i feel like i jsut want to exploed but everytime i see you looking back i jsut want to melt just to know that you even care just a little bit about me make me full of joy but the best of all is that i have you as my girlfriend and i don't have to worrie about likeing wiht out you knowing because now you can know and now that jerk is gone you and i can be together and its great to do that. the day i frist meet you was like something that was out of a book or a farietale cuz on that day i was having one of those days that you jsut want to really jsut hide from everyone and i was at my freshmen locker and you jsut walked up to put soemthign and take something out of your locker and befor you could take out whatever you did i think i shut your locker or was that teh secound day lol but even if it was the secound day i do remimber introducing my self to you int eh hallway that day and you did the same back and when you did i look in your eyes and i don't think you knew this but i did but ti was only for liek 2 secound and i liked you and saw how cute you where rigth after that my day got really good which i loved i had a very happy face on the whole day, evrytime i took one look t you in school those days the more and more i started to like you but once i found out you already had a boyfriend i was really sad but i couldn't do anythign about it or change it, i only wished when you two wehre broken up for that little time i would have asked you out but as of not knowing me i think you wold have said no to me but i would have at least tryed, and then wehn we had the same class for english i was really happy agian because i would always get to see you no matter wat i would see you its was such the best time having you in ym class last year i jsut wish we still had a class together this year that would have been a really fun time, jsut every day that gose by and you are theri with my makes me put on this smile more and more its not a spraise that its you becasue we both knew some how we would have gotten together, just i am happy its now. Baby remimber the time when i was trying to make a decison on who to pick to go out with between you and klyie well to tell you the truth i knew now i made the right decison because frist off i knew if i did't pick you i would regreate not picking you becasue i have liked oyu since liek freshmen year lol but i know if i picked you that i would have to deal with what curtis was going to do, to think of it i do not think iw as even ready to handle what he was going to do and i knew i should just not even acted like he was around or alive but i couldn't let him do wat he did to you, and i screwed up yea i know so baby in my love for you think of one think you want to do with me and tell me it and jsut amybe i will make that come true, Because baby i love you!
Krystal- hey baby! i miss you so much its not even funny like half of the time i am at work all i want to do is be with you unstaed of their, jsut it makes me really sad that i can not jsut wrap my arms around you at that time and go to sleep. Baby everytime i stair in your eyes i feel like i jsut want to exploed but everytime i see you looking back i jsut want to melt just to know that you even care just a little bit about me make me full of joy but the best of all is that i have you as my girlfriend and i don't have to worrie about likeing wiht out you knowing because now you can know and now that jerk is gone you and i can be together and its great to do that. the day i frist meet you was like something that was out of a book or a farietale cuz on that day i was having one of those days that you jsut want to really jsut hide from everyone and i was at my freshmen locker and you jsut walked up to put soemthign and take something out of your locker and befor you could take out whatever you did i think i shut your locker or was that teh secound day lol but even if it was the secound day i do remimber introducing my self to you int eh hallway that day and you did the same back and when you did i look in your eyes and i don't think you knew this but i did but ti was only for liek 2 secound and i liked you and saw how cute you where rigth after that my day got really good which i loved i had a very happy face on the whole day, evrytime i took one look t you in school those days the more and more i started to like you but once i found out you already had a boyfriend i was really sad but i couldn't do anythign about it or change it, i only wished when you two wehre broken up for that little time i would have asked you out but as of not knowing me i think you wold have said no to me but i would have at least tryed, and then wehn we had the same class for english i was really happy agian because i would always get to see you no matter wat i would see you its was such the best time having you in ym class last year i jsut wish we still had a class together this year that would have been a really fun time, jsut every day that gose by and you are theri with my makes me put on this smile more and more its not a spraise that its you becasue we both knew some how we would have gotten together, just i am happy its now. Baby remimber the time when i was trying to make a decison on who to pick to go out with between you and klyie well to tell you the truth i knew now i made the right decison because frist off i knew if i did't pick you i would regreate not picking you becasue i have liked oyu since liek freshmen year lol but i know if i picked you that i would have to deal with what curtis was going to do, to think of it i do not think iw as even ready to handle what he was going to do and i knew i should just not even acted like he was around or alive but i couldn't let him do wat he did to you, and i screwed up yea i know so baby in my love for you think of one think you want to do with me and tell me it and jsut amybe i will make that come true, Because baby i love you!