.... Are you awake kid?
The subject actually is a question that I ask myself every morning and usually the response is different every morning, which is a trick because I've asked myself the same question for almost 15 years now.
I have good news, something I am so happy about I could write home about it (the wife would be a little puzzled but I imagine she would understand). Night before last, I'm fairly certain the Predisone I was on finally left my body because I blacked out. I mean like, lay my head down and nothing; no dreaming, no drifting, no "shit I'm awake at 3 am again!" done.
I took the night off of work (2nd job) and slept again for 3 hours, got up for a bit and then eventually went back to bed and actually dreamt last night... One dream was so vivid I snapped awake to process it and frankly, get away from it (wasn't pleasant).
I know I will be able to rest again, hopefully tonight. There have been recent changes (yes I'm being vague, a good mage never gives up all his secrets, especially ones that hurt) that I was concerned if I would be able to. I'm considering my recent ability to rest again a gift in light of these changes. Suffice it to say it was something that has to be done and although it hurts, I am doing it willingly because it has to be done. That is what Love is; doing what it takes to make it work, even when it hurts.
DDM
I have good news, something I am so happy about I could write home about it (the wife would be a little puzzled but I imagine she would understand). Night before last, I'm fairly certain the Predisone I was on finally left my body because I blacked out. I mean like, lay my head down and nothing; no dreaming, no drifting, no "shit I'm awake at 3 am again!" done.
I took the night off of work (2nd job) and slept again for 3 hours, got up for a bit and then eventually went back to bed and actually dreamt last night... One dream was so vivid I snapped awake to process it and frankly, get away from it (wasn't pleasant).
I know I will be able to rest again, hopefully tonight. There have been recent changes (yes I'm being vague, a good mage never gives up all his secrets, especially ones that hurt) that I was concerned if I would be able to. I'm considering my recent ability to rest again a gift in light of these changes. Suffice it to say it was something that has to be done and although it hurts, I am doing it willingly because it has to be done. That is what Love is; doing what it takes to make it work, even when it hurts.
DDM