i see a little bit of you in everything.
i don't even know why i'm posting, i have nothing at all to say, nothing that would be heard at least. i talk talk talk and maybe that's my problem. i dunno. my mother is in an unheard of amount of pain right now and i can do nothing to stop it, and it's just making her short tempered with me, it's exactly what i need to make me feel better after i've already had a brilliant weekend. oh no no i'm sorry my weekend has be horrific. i'm really aggrivated right now and it is for a bad reason but a valid bad reason, not that it matters one little bit even if it was a good reason it wouldn't matter. amidst all this horrible thinking and doubting myself there are 2 things that keep me semi happy not that i'm going to get into it.... i am thoroughly in love, that's all, i've never been able to actually say it outloud and still won't and it kills me it really does. but i'll toss it in here just because i've wanted to scream that as loud as i could for mooooonths. i see this post getting deleted within a few hours and me shaking my head alot but i'm still gonna post it.