To life
"You are beautiful", Eric use to tell me everyday that we were dating, every single day. I never believed him. I would just look in the mirror and point out to him all my imperfections and he would just laugh and kiss me and say, "You will never belive me when I say you are the most beautiful girl". He would also get made at me that I couldn't believe him. I had trouble with him saying those words becasue I didn't belive it myself. I don't think there will ever be a boy that loved me as much as Eric did, and still does.
Today a man I was serving, whom I have never meet before, told me I had a very natural beauty and I was a very good server. He told me he had a feeling that someday I would make it, and I strangly believed him, despite all the things Eric has ever said and I never belived him. I thought he was blinded because he loved me so. This man said I was wonderful performer and he didn't even know I was an actress, he said he sensed it. I was slitly bizzarr yet comforting.
I think sometimes people get caught up in the unimportant things in life, like me wishing I was beautiful, and dwell and dwell. I know I certainly do. I waste time in dwelling in what I eat and why I don't fit into a certain pair of pants anymore and I run and run hoping I can lose this fat clinging for dear life to my poor body. I dont know if I will ever be truly happy with myself. and as much as I say I don't care what others think I me I DO i really do. Everyone wants love and be accepted in life.
These past couple of months have been life changing for so many of us and we have all been there for each other. For two years I had no friend, But I had Eric and that was all I needed at that time. He was my everything and still means everything to me. but we have gone our own ways and in his place I was giving the most wonderful people in my life. As corney as this will sound, when someone closes a door God opens a window, and in my case, a half a dozen beautiful windex sparkling windows.
Life throws us for a whril but we have each other to grab a hold of, and as tighly as needed. We all have know each other very shortly but we have this great unexplain chemisty. We all have a load of baggage too, ever single dramatic one of us and we are all gradually learning so much about each other and it is fun and exciting and yet very scarry and we get explainably worried for each other. But what we have to keep in mind is that life is so beatiful and we are all beautiiful, and if you are like me, you guys probaly dont belive me when I say this.
We are all so lucky really we are. We are taleted and gifted and have amazing sense of humor. Life gets crappy we have all been there, some worse than others, be we grow and learn from all the events in our lifes and we become strong.
I know the events, people in my life and the endless amount of rejections in my life has made me who I am today and i would never want to change that.
These are the years that we will remember the rest if our lifes. Lets fill them with laughter and hugs and kisses and LOVE. Yes we will have our low points be we have each other and ourselves.
Thank-you to my friends-new and old-all of you, thank-you from all of me.
Samantha
P.S Eric I believe you now-come home safe ,please
Today a man I was serving, whom I have never meet before, told me I had a very natural beauty and I was a very good server. He told me he had a feeling that someday I would make it, and I strangly believed him, despite all the things Eric has ever said and I never belived him. I thought he was blinded because he loved me so. This man said I was wonderful performer and he didn't even know I was an actress, he said he sensed it. I was slitly bizzarr yet comforting.
I think sometimes people get caught up in the unimportant things in life, like me wishing I was beautiful, and dwell and dwell. I know I certainly do. I waste time in dwelling in what I eat and why I don't fit into a certain pair of pants anymore and I run and run hoping I can lose this fat clinging for dear life to my poor body. I dont know if I will ever be truly happy with myself. and as much as I say I don't care what others think I me I DO i really do. Everyone wants love and be accepted in life.
These past couple of months have been life changing for so many of us and we have all been there for each other. For two years I had no friend, But I had Eric and that was all I needed at that time. He was my everything and still means everything to me. but we have gone our own ways and in his place I was giving the most wonderful people in my life. As corney as this will sound, when someone closes a door God opens a window, and in my case, a half a dozen beautiful windex sparkling windows.
Life throws us for a whril but we have each other to grab a hold of, and as tighly as needed. We all have know each other very shortly but we have this great unexplain chemisty. We all have a load of baggage too, ever single dramatic one of us and we are all gradually learning so much about each other and it is fun and exciting and yet very scarry and we get explainably worried for each other. But what we have to keep in mind is that life is so beatiful and we are all beautiiful, and if you are like me, you guys probaly dont belive me when I say this.
We are all so lucky really we are. We are taleted and gifted and have amazing sense of humor. Life gets crappy we have all been there, some worse than others, be we grow and learn from all the events in our lifes and we become strong.
I know the events, people in my life and the endless amount of rejections in my life has made me who I am today and i would never want to change that.
These are the years that we will remember the rest if our lifes. Lets fill them with laughter and hugs and kisses and LOVE. Yes we will have our low points be we have each other and ourselves.
Thank-you to my friends-new and old-all of you, thank-you from all of me.
Samantha
P.S Eric I believe you now-come home safe ,please