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So friday was Nancy's BDAY party (HAPPY BIRTHDAY!) I was so utterly exhausted when Josh and I arrived that I could hardly even speak (worked all day at the factory). I played my set (actually felt like I was sleeping for part of it) and then decided it would be a good idea to drink wine....a whole bottle of wine...in the span of an hour...I apologize to those who dealt with me. I don't remember much except complaining to Jackie and Lindsay about how much my life sucks right now. (hopefully I didnt say anything "stupid"). Sooz played well except the slight technical difficulties. Malto kano and Love and Terror Cult were great (it had been a while since I had seen LTC...I kind of wish I was sober so I could've maybe enjoyed it more). Sadly when Dance Electric played I was too drunk to watch, I don't even remember what I was doing. Maybe sleeping? Which is sad because I love Dance Electric and judging by the pictures I've seen it looks like they played terrific.
Last night I played in Alton...wow such a fun show. Couldn't find anyone to give me a lift down there (I'm so bad...I can't wait until I have my license) So Ryan Masterzzz and his girlfriend Michelle came all the way down from alton to pick me up and then drive me back to alton...They also drove me home. (soooo nice of them) For some reason I think this was one of the best shows I've ever played. I was still hungover, and even though there wasn't too many people there, I was extremely nervous (perhaps because I really love Ryan and Mant's music). But I think being nervous adds to my performance for some reason. Anyways it was a great atmosphere, Ryan and Mant were terrific and I believe I am playing there again jan 13th. So if you can come...you should! if you want to of course.
Sooooo...shitty situation. I'm supposedly playing someones birthday celebration this upcoming saturday (phillipino 19th birthday celebration?) but I found out on friday I'm only playing one song...This kind of makes me angry...I never get to see my friends except for the weekend, and recently it's usually only one evening out of the week, not even for that long. If the person who asked me to play it (if you're reading this...don't worry I'm not angry, just kind of sad) would've told me I'm only playing one song when they asked me to play, I definitely would've said no. But now I have to go to this celebration where I'm not going to know anyone, and play one song. This not only is going to be very very awkward for me, it almost seems like a waste of my time. I have been getting pretty depressed recently because I have no social life anymore! and the day after this celebration, (sunday) I'm playing wavelength (since it is a sunday I dont think alot of friends will come) So this means I wont be able to see my friends for a whole two weeks...
It's not that I WANT to play more songs. It's that I dont even want to do this at all (but am going to still) because I'm so horrible/awkward/anxious/nervous at things like these where I don't know anyone at all....and I'm not just attending it (which would make me horrible/awkward/anxious/nervous) I'm playing it.
IN CONCLUSION....AM I AN ASSHOLE FOR FEELING THIS WAY?!
Last night I played in Alton...wow such a fun show. Couldn't find anyone to give me a lift down there (I'm so bad...I can't wait until I have my license) So Ryan Masterzzz and his girlfriend Michelle came all the way down from alton to pick me up and then drive me back to alton...They also drove me home. (soooo nice of them) For some reason I think this was one of the best shows I've ever played. I was still hungover, and even though there wasn't too many people there, I was extremely nervous (perhaps because I really love Ryan and Mant's music). But I think being nervous adds to my performance for some reason. Anyways it was a great atmosphere, Ryan and Mant were terrific and I believe I am playing there again jan 13th. So if you can come...you should! if you want to of course.
Sooooo...shitty situation. I'm supposedly playing someones birthday celebration this upcoming saturday (phillipino 19th birthday celebration?) but I found out on friday I'm only playing one song...This kind of makes me angry...I never get to see my friends except for the weekend, and recently it's usually only one evening out of the week, not even for that long. If the person who asked me to play it (if you're reading this...don't worry I'm not angry, just kind of sad) would've told me I'm only playing one song when they asked me to play, I definitely would've said no. But now I have to go to this celebration where I'm not going to know anyone, and play one song. This not only is going to be very very awkward for me, it almost seems like a waste of my time. I have been getting pretty depressed recently because I have no social life anymore! and the day after this celebration, (sunday) I'm playing wavelength (since it is a sunday I dont think alot of friends will come) So this means I wont be able to see my friends for a whole two weeks...
It's not that I WANT to play more songs. It's that I dont even want to do this at all (but am going to still) because I'm so horrible/awkward/anxious/nervous at things like these where I don't know anyone at all....and I'm not just attending it (which would make me horrible/awkward/anxious/nervous) I'm playing it.
IN CONCLUSION....AM I AN ASSHOLE FOR FEELING THIS WAY?!