Dec 30, 2004 22:10
everything comes down to this. feels like I'm standing on the edge. of something SO much bigger than anything I could ever had anticpated. I'm kind of scared, scared to lose everyone. but I guess thats the chance that has to be taken. in order to move forward. I worry too much. instead of letting go I continue to push. continue to try. but I said no to him. and I let go.
but I worry about matt sometimes solely for the reason that I want him to be happy. and I really missed him when he got so caught up in something else that he lost himself. I don't want to ever see him go through that again but I want him to be happy. I just hope he's careful.
goodbye white lake
hello redford.
to all those who don't know I moved this weekend.