Life is Art... Life is TV?
So. After a crazy Gilmore Girls marathon to help me blow of steam now that my finals are over (all but philosophy which is Thurs.), I realized something. I know that Rory was at Yale for four years and I was at Central for only two, but I still feel like this is a good time for GG to end.
(I haven't seen the finale. I'm downloading the torrent so don't ruin it for me)
I was thinking back on the first week of school last year when I didn't have any friends and I sat up on top of my bed, in the tiny half of the room, in this VERY room, watching GG DVDs on my roommate's TV while she was at softball practice, and the episode I happened to be watching was the one where Lorelai takes Rory to Yale for the first time and they move in all her crap. I remember crying then because my parents had just left me.
To go to college.
Thousands of miles away.
(Rory got to go home like every weekend!)
Anyway, she just graduated in the episode I just watched. Her life (well, not her love life) mirrored mine, only at double speed. (Oh the wonders of TV on DVD.)
Where will I be in 2 years? Will I be graduating from Point Loma, SDSU, or will I have to go for a 5th year? Will I have chickened out and come back to Central where I know that getting a degree is cake and the teachers all already love me (even the ones I've never had!)?
Chickening out is a REAL option right now. Liz went to Greenville, closer to home, for one semester and she is coming back here. If I come back here I know the campus, I know the people, I even know people in town! Deidra could move back and we could open the coffee shop together.
I never thought I'd say this but McPherson really kind of seems like home to me. I am so far away from my family, which sucks, but it also helps me feel a bit more adult. Sure, I don't pay rent--I don't pay for ANYTHING but Gas and personal expenses, but I know that I could survive on my own here. I'm familiar with businesses, apartments, I could even get an "in" for a "real" job.
But I want to be in CA.
Or do I?
During high school I couldn't WAIT to get out of CA. I applied for APU but never really thought I'd take it. People in CA are fickle and fake (no, not you guys!!). There are some of those here, but for the most part they're "down-home folk" who smile at you as you're taking a walk downtown. No hustle, rudeness or coldness.
Well, there IS the coldness issue. If I see any more snow in 2007 I'll kill somebody.
I'm just being retarded. My time at Central is coming to an end and next year I won't have Deidra to make friends FOR me like she did here last year.
I suck at making friends.
Am I going to have friends at Point Loma? In San Diego?
Will I be able to find a job this summer? That doesn't even hinge on skill, just luck. (Something I have none of).
Kansas folk like me but I don't think CA people do.
I don't fit in there anymore. I'm a midwest kid. A crazy, liberal, "radical" midwest kid, but I feel so afraid of moving to the "big city" when I've LIVED in CA since I was 11 years old!!
I'm going to hate it
It's a mistake
(I haven't seen the finale. I'm downloading the torrent so don't ruin it for me)
I was thinking back on the first week of school last year when I didn't have any friends and I sat up on top of my bed, in the tiny half of the room, in this VERY room, watching GG DVDs on my roommate's TV while she was at softball practice, and the episode I happened to be watching was the one where Lorelai takes Rory to Yale for the first time and they move in all her crap. I remember crying then because my parents had just left me.
To go to college.
Thousands of miles away.
(Rory got to go home like every weekend!)
Anyway, she just graduated in the episode I just watched. Her life (well, not her love life) mirrored mine, only at double speed. (Oh the wonders of TV on DVD.)
Where will I be in 2 years? Will I be graduating from Point Loma, SDSU, or will I have to go for a 5th year? Will I have chickened out and come back to Central where I know that getting a degree is cake and the teachers all already love me (even the ones I've never had!)?
Chickening out is a REAL option right now. Liz went to Greenville, closer to home, for one semester and she is coming back here. If I come back here I know the campus, I know the people, I even know people in town! Deidra could move back and we could open the coffee shop together.
I never thought I'd say this but McPherson really kind of seems like home to me. I am so far away from my family, which sucks, but it also helps me feel a bit more adult. Sure, I don't pay rent--I don't pay for ANYTHING but Gas and personal expenses, but I know that I could survive on my own here. I'm familiar with businesses, apartments, I could even get an "in" for a "real" job.
But I want to be in CA.
Or do I?
During high school I couldn't WAIT to get out of CA. I applied for APU but never really thought I'd take it. People in CA are fickle and fake (no, not you guys!!). There are some of those here, but for the most part they're "down-home folk" who smile at you as you're taking a walk downtown. No hustle, rudeness or coldness.
Well, there IS the coldness issue. If I see any more snow in 2007 I'll kill somebody.
I'm just being retarded. My time at Central is coming to an end and next year I won't have Deidra to make friends FOR me like she did here last year.
I suck at making friends.
Am I going to have friends at Point Loma? In San Diego?
Will I be able to find a job this summer? That doesn't even hinge on skill, just luck. (Something I have none of).
Kansas folk like me but I don't think CA people do.
I don't fit in there anymore. I'm a midwest kid. A crazy, liberal, "radical" midwest kid, but I feel so afraid of moving to the "big city" when I've LIVED in CA since I was 11 years old!!
I'm going to hate it
It's a mistake