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Notthing good really. Learned an awesome Drinking game tonight. Its called circle of death. Very interesting and it gets ya tRaShEdDd! lol. Ill teach all my alcoholic friends sometime. My moms a BITCHhH, no doubt about it. Me & john tried to do something nice for her tonight and she just came home and bitched about EVERYTHING! Fuck her. I cant wait to get the fuck out of this house. If i had somewhere else to go i would. But my dads never been there for me @ any other point in my life so why would he be here for me now? right?! Hes too caught up with his bitch out in Long Island anyway. The only thing i ever counted on him for was the card with $100 bucks in it for Christmas and my Birthday. Thats sad. I wish i had a dad that wanted to be in my life in a positive way but i dont. Me and mom barely talk anymore, were like strangers. And when we do have a "convorsation" it isnt a positive one. They always involve cursing & screaming. Thats stable! The only one i feel any ounce of closeness to anymore is john. Toms a freakin stranger too! I miss him so much. I wish shit was different. And when i do see him like once a year. Hes a stranger to me! Its so surreal. W/e there isnt much i can do about any of it. Its been this way and it will continue to be. Well i just got myself all choked up. Im out before i upset myself even more. Lata babez