An Angel in disguise?
I have decided to take of Christianity. I'm not sure what region of if. But I am going to. A very special girl convinced me of it. And I know in my heart that she is the one who could complete me on my quest with my life. I thank her so much for showing me the way. It's not just this conversation, but a number of them. She is always there for me.
I am 00
she is 05
00: i watched a very inspiring movie.
00: and it made me want to find religion
00: im tired of not believing in anything
05: oh wow
00: i have read the bible, but not actualy read it if that makes any sense
05: are you totally against christianity?
05: umm
05: yea it does
00: along with studying many other religions
00: the movie made me want to believe in god.
00: to know that there is something out there beyond life.
00: i dont know.. it just really touched me.
00: and i know that your getting back into religion now, and i just wanted someone to talk about it i suppose
00: but to answer your question, no i am not against christianity
00: i am not against any religion.
705: oh so you did see the exorcism of emily rose
00: i believe everyone needs to have their own fath
05: yea it really does open your eyes
00: good guess.
00: lol
05: i mean after that movie it scared me really bad
00: i wasnt necessarily scared. it just makes me want to read the bible again, and see the things ive missed to get a better understanding.
05: yea that is exactly what i am doing
05: and i totally feel like anew person now that i've been saved
05: imean the bible leaves many questions but they will be answered sooner or later
00: i guess im just scared about being let down again.
05: by god?
00: yes
00: exactly that.
00: from what i remember, the bible does not accept people like me.
05: soddum and glamore? (sp?)
05: yea
05: well you can change that
00: no..
05: you do like women
00: i have never had anal sex
05: obviously you like lol
00: but i have messed around with males
00: no.
05: then what do you mean?
00: it seems he does not accecpt deformity, psychotic problems, androgomy
00: ect..
00: i dunno.
00: im just confused on life i guess
05: now are you talking about the old testament?
05: because if you are, don't
05: because according to that everyone isgoing to hell because we all sin
05: the part you should read is the new testament
00: i cant remember, is Job new or old?
05: idk
05: i'm new to the bible
00: but if god is so unforgiving, the lover of all.. then why does it feel like i have been "cursed"
00: i just feel as though he has turned his back on me.
05: you feel like you are cursed because you have not fully taken God into your life
05: see that is the devil influencing you right there
00: all i have ever asked for was for someone to tell me its going to be alright. someone to tell me i am worth something. growing up my parents never really showed me love. you have no idea how close i am to just crying right ow thinking about the subject. i hate my past.
00: i have been violated, abused, pushed to the limit. and i dont think i can handle it anymore.
00: i need something to look forward to in my future.
00: im always looking for the brighter sides in life. searching for something that i can believe in and last.
00: the past apx 30 hours have been the roughest.
05: you need to find your religion
05: that is one thing that you can always rely on
00: i found someone i truely care about. which is you. i want to find god, but i feel that if i try reaching for me he will cast me aside like a pebble.
05: if you fully believe, with no doubt in your mind that God is the almighty, he will be there for you
00: because that is what i have done to him
00: i want to cry so bad.. but i cant. i have to be strong. for myself.
05: no you should cry
000: i feel that if i do, i will let myself down and feel worthless. and thats when the pain really strikes me.
05: because that will show him how truly sorry you are
05: you just need to say when you are ready, God please forgive me of my sins and take me back into your arms
05: and just sit and talk to him
05: he does listen believe me
05: and crying is a good thing, it shows that you do care
00: i never thought i would have meet a person to touch my soul the way you have..
05: good
00: would you do me a huge favor?
00: comfort me. make my newfound tears go away. tell me that you care about me. tell me how you truely feel. tell me that someday, i will find God and happiness sometime in my life. i cant go on like this. living my life as a lie.
00: you have cut to the core of my heart. and told me the truth. and for that, i truely do thank you.
05: Jon
00: oh.. lol
05: you will find God
05: And I do care about you
05: you kno I do
00: thanks. you have no idea how much that, and you mean to me.
00: i cried.
00: and to be honest, i feel like i died a little inside.
05: why do you feel like you died inside a little? I don't understand
00: because over the past i tought myself not to cry. i had to be strong for myself. because no one would/could help me with the promblems i was having.
05: well that is the dumbest thing i've ever heard. no offense
05: thats why you have friends and family
05: and you have me
00: i only have a couple of friends. i do however have "friends" but they arent the same.
00: and you..
00: i dont know what it is about you.
00: but, you always know how to make me happy, and feel better about myself.
00: you are so real to me... there arent words to express the felings i have towards you.
05: good i'm glad i make you feel that way
05: isn't' everyone real?
05: i mean i just tell the truth
00: not many people are real. a lot of people live their lives with their eyes closed, and fail to see the true form of people on what they look on the inside.
05: well i guess i am different then
05: i've been told i'm different actually by a lot of people
05: and i didn't understand it until now
00: yes.. you are a very special person. you have a strong bond with trust. and helpfulness.
05: well i am glad that I can comfort others
05: its a blessing
00: it is. and im happy to have finally met someone that actually understands me and con comfort me in the time of need.
05: oh jon, i will always be here for you
I am 00
she is 05
00: i watched a very inspiring movie.
00: and it made me want to find religion
00: im tired of not believing in anything
05: oh wow
00: i have read the bible, but not actualy read it if that makes any sense
05: are you totally against christianity?
05: umm
05: yea it does
00: along with studying many other religions
00: the movie made me want to believe in god.
00: to know that there is something out there beyond life.
00: i dont know.. it just really touched me.
00: and i know that your getting back into religion now, and i just wanted someone to talk about it i suppose
00: but to answer your question, no i am not against christianity
00: i am not against any religion.
705: oh so you did see the exorcism of emily rose
00: i believe everyone needs to have their own fath
05: yea it really does open your eyes
00: good guess.
00: lol
05: i mean after that movie it scared me really bad
00: i wasnt necessarily scared. it just makes me want to read the bible again, and see the things ive missed to get a better understanding.
05: yea that is exactly what i am doing
05: and i totally feel like anew person now that i've been saved
05: imean the bible leaves many questions but they will be answered sooner or later
00: i guess im just scared about being let down again.
05: by god?
00: yes
00: exactly that.
00: from what i remember, the bible does not accept people like me.
05: soddum and glamore? (sp?)
05: yea
05: well you can change that
00: no..
05: you do like women
00: i have never had anal sex
05: obviously you like lol
00: but i have messed around with males
00: no.
05: then what do you mean?
00: it seems he does not accecpt deformity, psychotic problems, androgomy
00: ect..
00: i dunno.
00: im just confused on life i guess
05: now are you talking about the old testament?
05: because if you are, don't
05: because according to that everyone isgoing to hell because we all sin
05: the part you should read is the new testament
00: i cant remember, is Job new or old?
05: idk
05: i'm new to the bible
00: but if god is so unforgiving, the lover of all.. then why does it feel like i have been "cursed"
00: i just feel as though he has turned his back on me.
05: you feel like you are cursed because you have not fully taken God into your life
05: see that is the devil influencing you right there
00: all i have ever asked for was for someone to tell me its going to be alright. someone to tell me i am worth something. growing up my parents never really showed me love. you have no idea how close i am to just crying right ow thinking about the subject. i hate my past.
00: i have been violated, abused, pushed to the limit. and i dont think i can handle it anymore.
00: i need something to look forward to in my future.
00: im always looking for the brighter sides in life. searching for something that i can believe in and last.
00: the past apx 30 hours have been the roughest.
05: you need to find your religion
05: that is one thing that you can always rely on
00: i found someone i truely care about. which is you. i want to find god, but i feel that if i try reaching for me he will cast me aside like a pebble.
05: if you fully believe, with no doubt in your mind that God is the almighty, he will be there for you
00: because that is what i have done to him
00: i want to cry so bad.. but i cant. i have to be strong. for myself.
05: no you should cry
000: i feel that if i do, i will let myself down and feel worthless. and thats when the pain really strikes me.
05: because that will show him how truly sorry you are
05: you just need to say when you are ready, God please forgive me of my sins and take me back into your arms
05: and just sit and talk to him
05: he does listen believe me
05: and crying is a good thing, it shows that you do care
00: i never thought i would have meet a person to touch my soul the way you have..
05: good
00: would you do me a huge favor?
00: comfort me. make my newfound tears go away. tell me that you care about me. tell me how you truely feel. tell me that someday, i will find God and happiness sometime in my life. i cant go on like this. living my life as a lie.
00: you have cut to the core of my heart. and told me the truth. and for that, i truely do thank you.
05: Jon
00: oh.. lol
05: you will find God
05: And I do care about you
05: you kno I do
00: thanks. you have no idea how much that, and you mean to me.
00: i cried.
00: and to be honest, i feel like i died a little inside.
05: why do you feel like you died inside a little? I don't understand
00: because over the past i tought myself not to cry. i had to be strong for myself. because no one would/could help me with the promblems i was having.
05: well that is the dumbest thing i've ever heard. no offense
05: thats why you have friends and family
05: and you have me
00: i only have a couple of friends. i do however have "friends" but they arent the same.
00: and you..
00: i dont know what it is about you.
00: but, you always know how to make me happy, and feel better about myself.
00: you are so real to me... there arent words to express the felings i have towards you.
05: good i'm glad i make you feel that way
05: isn't' everyone real?
05: i mean i just tell the truth
00: not many people are real. a lot of people live their lives with their eyes closed, and fail to see the true form of people on what they look on the inside.
05: well i guess i am different then
05: i've been told i'm different actually by a lot of people
05: and i didn't understand it until now
00: yes.. you are a very special person. you have a strong bond with trust. and helpfulness.
05: well i am glad that I can comfort others
05: its a blessing
00: it is. and im happy to have finally met someone that actually understands me and con comfort me in the time of need.
05: oh jon, i will always be here for you