worried....

[i_wish_711]

Ok, now I'm really starting to worry....Rachel had to work last night, then got off like 2 and a half hours early, which I was ESTATIC for, because not only was she off work early, she was in an amazing mood, so I was all excited that we'd getta talk tonihgt & stuff. Well I had to go get some fast food with my mom, I told her I'd call her a.s.a.p. when I got home & everything was great. As soon as I get home I call her, & she's like ur gonna hate me or something to that affect, & I was like you're going out aren't u? & she did that u know it's a lie, no. I sighed because I wasn't gonna hide my disappointment, we're hardly really talking anymore, I mean not as much as we used to & I dunno I was so upset I Wasn't gonna talk to her really tonight cuz she origanly wanted me to call her @ around 10 I think it was, but what she didn't get is I have to wait till ym parents go to bed which could be like 11 or later, & just sit'n there wait'n gets boring & if I know myself I'd fall asleep then miss talking to her, & even on the off chance I did wake up @ say 12 or 12:30, I'd only get to talk to her like an hour or an half an hour cuz she was gonna make me go to bed...::sighs:: so I was sooooo happy she was off work early. Then I get home & she just leave, like I mean we talked for maybe a minute...& then she had to let me go....IT REALLY sucked, well I told her I'd just talk to her tomorrow right, well we all know I can't do that, so I waited & set my alarm for 12:15, cuz her cerfew's 12, so I gave her some extra time to make sure she got home, so anyway it woke me up, I called her, a couple times actually (I'd also called her around 10 before I went to bed just to let her know I was gonna call her but I had to leave a message then too cuz she didn't answer), & no answer, so I got online, Melanie IMed me & then I asked her if she knew where my g/f was, she said she was try'n to call, she didn't get an answer either, & she was like maybe she went to bed, I know Rachel & that girl never hits the sac before 5, 6, in the morn'n so I knew that couldn't be it.....I ended up finding out that Rachel was out with her & Sean, & that they had gotten home around 11:30ish. So I went ahead & went back to bed, had my alarm set for 5, called her cell & her house a few times, her cell is now off which it NEVER EVER is, & she didn't answer her house phone, and she's not on the internet, which brings me to the whole point in this journal entry....I'm WORRIED to no end, because I don't know where she is or what's wrong. I don't know when I'll talk to her today, with having marching & stuff & ::sighs:: I'm just so...I miss her, & I'm afraid somethings really wrong. ::Ponders what could be happenig:: See she went to the hospital a while back, u know & maybe she had to go again, maybe somethings wrong with her mom, maybe...::cupps face in hands:: there are so many possibilites. Baby if ur reading this, GET IN TOUCH WITH ME! I don't care, how...I'll be online @ school today @ lunch 11:10-11:40 be on or something, I'm seriously worried sick. I love you, & please be ok....

-the currently tortured