i want to sink into your skin.
today's one of those days where i look put together but i feel so tired and disconnected and just BLAH.
i painted my toes a different color for the first time in about a year.
why does nail polish randomly remind me of brandon? he used to let me paint his toenails all the time in the winters.
it was one of those things we shared with a giggle, like little kids on a playground.
sigh. im nostalgic.
and i just cant seem to get him the fuck out of my dreams.
i hate it cause i wake up next to shawn every morning, and im thinking about someone else. and i love shawn, i truly, deeply do. but these dreams have made me quite aware that i miss brandon; i cant deny that.
i miss my best friend.
this soda is not waking me up the way i thought it would. why is it that i went to bed at 10:30 last night but still feel like i got absolutely not a wink of sleep?
bitch, bitch, bitch. ill be doing a lot of that today.
i am REALLY not looking forward to the FOUR HOURS i will be spending at FCC today. if i fall asleep too many times im seriously just going to leave.
ugh, alright, enough.
i need to eat breakfast and pick up contract files and do research on cool looking posters for my cousin's new business.
i love all the new responsibilities at work, but goddamn can my body please WAKE UP?!???
anybody got any aderall?
i painted my toes a different color for the first time in about a year.
why does nail polish randomly remind me of brandon? he used to let me paint his toenails all the time in the winters.
it was one of those things we shared with a giggle, like little kids on a playground.
sigh. im nostalgic.
and i just cant seem to get him the fuck out of my dreams.
i hate it cause i wake up next to shawn every morning, and im thinking about someone else. and i love shawn, i truly, deeply do. but these dreams have made me quite aware that i miss brandon; i cant deny that.
i miss my best friend.
this soda is not waking me up the way i thought it would. why is it that i went to bed at 10:30 last night but still feel like i got absolutely not a wink of sleep?
bitch, bitch, bitch. ill be doing a lot of that today.
i am REALLY not looking forward to the FOUR HOURS i will be spending at FCC today. if i fall asleep too many times im seriously just going to leave.
ugh, alright, enough.
i need to eat breakfast and pick up contract files and do research on cool looking posters for my cousin's new business.
i love all the new responsibilities at work, but goddamn can my body please WAKE UP?!???
anybody got any aderall?