lately its been said to me that i should let it go, like they even know..
i just randomly got a transcendent third song stuck in my head and immediately went to their myspace page to listen to it. the most random of random, its now on repeat and im really liking these lyrics. man, sometimes i wish those boys didnt have so much lyrical goodness in them. like when you hear a song for the first time and think, "dammit i wish i had written that!" yeah. thats how i feel when i listen to Go.
i feel like such a rollercoaster of emotions today. its irritating to be around myself. does anyone else ever get like that, or is it just me? im pretty sure thats a stupid question, but i really feel like im the only one who's thinking inside her head "WHAT THE FUUUUUCK!?!?1sdifjwfskjvbasicvbd!!!!!" i need different meds. ooooor something. im starting to believe thats just my excuse for everything. "its my meds." BAH.
i never know really just HOW much ranting i feel the need to go on until i click onto this page, where in this little word box i can type and type until my heart is content and everyone in the internet world can read my bullshit. why do we have these things?? and why cant i stop using mine, even after like FIVE YEARS?!??? its addicting, isnt it? to crack into other peoples' lives and feel like you have some sort of input, control even, over their emotions and actions? i fucking hate those little "leave a comment" boxes. i dont need any more fucking bitches commenting about my life. dont we all have enough estrogenic aggression raging inside of us to just leave each other alone? my god, im reading this book Odd Girl Out right now, non-fiction, about the hidden aggression of adolescents, and i have learned SO MUCH about myself through it. i feel like such a bookworm, every time i sit down to read i have my pen and highlighter in tow and feel the exasperating need to made little comments in the margains nearly every page, then highlighting the corresponding passage that i feel applies to me.
garen and zion got their new place on 40, so shayna has been out of sight for the past two days. i cant say i blame her; its a sweet apartment. hangage will ensue there tonight.
4th of july mullet hunt is coming soon. cannot freaking wait.
love.
i feel like such a rollercoaster of emotions today. its irritating to be around myself. does anyone else ever get like that, or is it just me? im pretty sure thats a stupid question, but i really feel like im the only one who's thinking inside her head "WHAT THE FUUUUUCK!?!?1sdifjwfskjvbasicvbd!!!!!" i need different meds. ooooor something. im starting to believe thats just my excuse for everything. "its my meds." BAH.
i never know really just HOW much ranting i feel the need to go on until i click onto this page, where in this little word box i can type and type until my heart is content and everyone in the internet world can read my bullshit. why do we have these things?? and why cant i stop using mine, even after like FIVE YEARS?!??? its addicting, isnt it? to crack into other peoples' lives and feel like you have some sort of input, control even, over their emotions and actions? i fucking hate those little "leave a comment" boxes. i dont need any more fucking bitches commenting about my life. dont we all have enough estrogenic aggression raging inside of us to just leave each other alone? my god, im reading this book Odd Girl Out right now, non-fiction, about the hidden aggression of adolescents, and i have learned SO MUCH about myself through it. i feel like such a bookworm, every time i sit down to read i have my pen and highlighter in tow and feel the exasperating need to made little comments in the margains nearly every page, then highlighting the corresponding passage that i feel applies to me.
garen and zion got their new place on 40, so shayna has been out of sight for the past two days. i cant say i blame her; its a sweet apartment. hangage will ensue there tonight.
4th of july mullet hunt is coming soon. cannot freaking wait.
love.