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well my day sucked royally, i thought it would be a little better because i got to see robbie alst night and i talked to him on the phone this morning, but it made no difference. my dad too my jeep from me the other day, right after i put half a tank of gas in it, which was all of the money i had. but yea so i woke up this moring and crawled out of bed. sat and stared at my bedroom walls and then got the motivation to get up and get ready for school. well school didn't prove to be much better, i was sleepy today, really sleepy. and i got in trouble, big trouble "violation of the honor code" forgeing grades, but i pulled that fake cry, with real tears, told them about my dad in the hospital told them that i was under alot of stress, and had been depressed lately and i think i got off pretty well. then as i was driving home from school in my dads beat up nasty POS truck it runs out of gas, because mind you, i had no money to put any in it, so i wait forever for my dad to come and give me enough gas and money to get to the gas station. then i came home. i'm going to the tanning bed here in a little bit.
okay so lately, what has happened?...i've started going to the tanning bed... my family is trying really hard to make things easier for me, perhaps i don't thank them enough for their effort. i'm rather excited about the play, Annie. I play the dog, Sandy. at first i wasn't really happy aboutthe role, but i was convinced to suck it up and try my best to make this work for me. so that's what i'm doing, making this work.
i think i might get my own car soon. i would like that. to have a car would be wonderful! lately it seems like everyone is having a hard time wiht everything, rob is having a hard time, jess is having a hard time, matt is having a hard time, drew is having a hard time, mick is having a hard time. i hate that since everyone's world is falling apart at the sametime we've no one to run to. but maybe this is healthy, maybe it teaching us independence.
i've hng out with alot of really cool, really nice poeple lately, that you wouldn't useually think are fun to be around. i miss hanging out with some of the people i used to hang out with lkike, sierra and megan harris, i loved being around them! they made me laugh, not that i don't love hanging out with the poeple i do now, but i would like to step out of the routine.
well i must depart.
farewell
..Bethany..
okay so lately, what has happened?...i've started going to the tanning bed... my family is trying really hard to make things easier for me, perhaps i don't thank them enough for their effort. i'm rather excited about the play, Annie. I play the dog, Sandy. at first i wasn't really happy aboutthe role, but i was convinced to suck it up and try my best to make this work for me. so that's what i'm doing, making this work.
i think i might get my own car soon. i would like that. to have a car would be wonderful! lately it seems like everyone is having a hard time wiht everything, rob is having a hard time, jess is having a hard time, matt is having a hard time, drew is having a hard time, mick is having a hard time. i hate that since everyone's world is falling apart at the sametime we've no one to run to. but maybe this is healthy, maybe it teaching us independence.
i've hng out with alot of really cool, really nice poeple lately, that you wouldn't useually think are fun to be around. i miss hanging out with some of the people i used to hang out with lkike, sierra and megan harris, i loved being around them! they made me laugh, not that i don't love hanging out with the poeple i do now, but i would like to step out of the routine.
well i must depart.
farewell
..Bethany..