Oct 09, 2004 06:23
i have so many things running through my head right now that i think i may burst into tears at any momment. damnit! uhm so i got asked out by a guy that i like and have liked for many moons and i said no. all i can think about is gavin today wtf. i hate him so effin much... please get out of my head. i need closure with gavin i think. i mean after all he did just LIE and up and leave without a fucking trace. i need closure lots and lots of closure.
i just want to talk to teddy right now!
i wish i would have stayed to see the fight last night damn! what is wrong with me.
i think one of my friend is engaged and thats wierd because he's not a very commited person...AT ALL.
we interpreted dreams in shakespeare the other day. and i interpreted one of the dreams i'v been having since i was little and i'm afraid of bering commited because i'm afraid of loosing me and loosing direction in my life, so i will commit adultery. and i am afraid of love because my parents divorced.
a week off school. god. just what i need... there better me major amount of hangiong out with the coolest of the cool...especially teddy...because it's time for a makeout session i do believe.
teddy lets hang tonight, call me.