funny thing about life

[i_was_justin_u]

one minute you can be sitting there laughing, smiling with friends, being yourselves or at least that's how i'd like to remember it. truth is i don't remember my last time with her, because i didn't stop to think that it might be the last time. i've stopped to think about it in the past, and always made a note to show her the affection she loved to receive, but it would fade over the weeks. nobody saw it coming, one minute everythings okay and the next she collapses during a walk in the park and doctors say it's too late, they can't save her. i just wish i would have stopped to give her a hug before i left this morning, she was so happy when i saw her as i woke up too but i just got ready and ran out the door too hurried to spend any real time. i've never been in so much pain in my life as standing next to her lifeless body, still warm on that cold stainless steel table

i've been blessed enough not having to deal with death for a lot of years i don't think i'm going to leave my house for a few days.