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well helloooooooo LJ its been a while. i figured i'd say hi i guess.....actually i'm putting off doing the mounds of homework that i have tonite ha!! soo what to say what to say....does it even matter? does anyone even read this anymore? i feel like they don't but we'll see.
this year so far...lets talk about that and how i dont know what the hell is going on or how to deal with it! My feelings on sophmore year literally change from week to week. basically i'm a big bundle of emotions...not all bad tho. I am still realizing what i like and dislike in life....in school...in myself. I've had MANY new experiences even from summer to now that have changed who i am as a person. Apparantly they are big changes because others have noticed them as well. In a way I guess I'm living life....even more so than i already did. I've done things that I SWORE i would never do...and i'm ok with it. Although some have made me really hate who i am as a person....and wonder what has become of me....miraculously tho i've pulled thru....ughh...wow writing that was no fun haha however...i feel like i have everything i've wanted for myself at this point....living on the east coast...studying the one subject i love with all my heart....around loyal, real, talented, supportive people. There's only one thing missing....thats always been missing...but because i'm so preoccupied with school and trying to succeed on my own...i feel like it'll be missing for a little while longer....hopefully not too long...but hey i'm used to it. Life can't be perfect and right now that's the one thing that's keeping it from being perfect....and i guess thats just how it has to be......whatevah
i had the priviledge to be in an absolutly fabulous show...with a wonderful cast...amazing director and choreographer....and i learned so much from that experience. in the month and half that i was involved in the show I was genuinly happy. It gave me a reason to get up in the morning...to go to school and do well because i want to be able to be that happy and that motivated and learn that much every day of my life. Its why I'm here....across the damn country....three thousand miles away from my parents and my home...
Classes this year have been different....challenging in a way that they weren't last year...if that makes sense. I don't know if I enjoy them more...maybe its because I'm learning new...difficult things...that maybe I can't get on the first try...imagine that hahaha
anyways...i'm not expecting anyone to read this...it was really more for myself....to vent and reflect on the past few months....anyways.... i guess thats all for now...maybe i'll write in this thing more often now ha!
this year so far...lets talk about that and how i dont know what the hell is going on or how to deal with it! My feelings on sophmore year literally change from week to week. basically i'm a big bundle of emotions...not all bad tho. I am still realizing what i like and dislike in life....in school...in myself. I've had MANY new experiences even from summer to now that have changed who i am as a person. Apparantly they are big changes because others have noticed them as well. In a way I guess I'm living life....even more so than i already did. I've done things that I SWORE i would never do...and i'm ok with it. Although some have made me really hate who i am as a person....and wonder what has become of me....miraculously tho i've pulled thru....ughh...wow writing that was no fun haha however...i feel like i have everything i've wanted for myself at this point....living on the east coast...studying the one subject i love with all my heart....around loyal, real, talented, supportive people. There's only one thing missing....thats always been missing...but because i'm so preoccupied with school and trying to succeed on my own...i feel like it'll be missing for a little while longer....hopefully not too long...but hey i'm used to it. Life can't be perfect and right now that's the one thing that's keeping it from being perfect....and i guess thats just how it has to be......whatevah
i had the priviledge to be in an absolutly fabulous show...with a wonderful cast...amazing director and choreographer....and i learned so much from that experience. in the month and half that i was involved in the show I was genuinly happy. It gave me a reason to get up in the morning...to go to school and do well because i want to be able to be that happy and that motivated and learn that much every day of my life. Its why I'm here....across the damn country....three thousand miles away from my parents and my home...
Classes this year have been different....challenging in a way that they weren't last year...if that makes sense. I don't know if I enjoy them more...maybe its because I'm learning new...difficult things...that maybe I can't get on the first try...imagine that hahaha
anyways...i'm not expecting anyone to read this...it was really more for myself....to vent and reflect on the past few months....anyways.... i guess thats all for now...maybe i'll write in this thing more often now ha!