overboard...
Well last night i got so messed up. beer then liqour then beer then rolled cigg then weed. what a bad combination. i guess i passed out in the bathroom for over an hour n half. i thought it was like 20 mins. i felt like i couldn't get up. my stomach was in so much pain and i tried throwing up nothing at all. it just sucked! and i did all this, knowning i had a mid term today. why?!
well i guess i gotta look at the past to find answers for the present. i've been into alcohol and drugs for awhile. they have been used at times for recreation and other times as an escape from reality. most of the times i cause the drama that i wish to escape. last night i figured to drink a lil to loosen up and then as it intensified i said f*ck it and just went overboard. i thought it would lift some stress off my shoulder. when i woke up this morning tho, the stress was all there, even more. escaping never works cause it always just back fires at least twice as much.
my over-analytical and selling myself short personality doesn't help. i think way too much and figure i should let some sh*t go but i never do. it's dumb i know, but thats who i am. man this stuff is too deep to keep goin into detail with it.
anyways all i have been up to lately is school and snowboarding. i have never rode so much powder in my life these past 3 weeks. its the best thing ever seeing as in the east were always deprived of nice fluffy snow. and in school i got a midterm back for english class. and it was 100! how i did this i have no clue because they were all short answer questions that were opinion based (teacher's opinion obviously). i was pretty stoked. and the mid term for today, well im hopin for anything higher than a C but it probably won't happen. i guess i just need to set priorities better. live a lil healthier. and know my limits.
well i guess i gotta look at the past to find answers for the present. i've been into alcohol and drugs for awhile. they have been used at times for recreation and other times as an escape from reality. most of the times i cause the drama that i wish to escape. last night i figured to drink a lil to loosen up and then as it intensified i said f*ck it and just went overboard. i thought it would lift some stress off my shoulder. when i woke up this morning tho, the stress was all there, even more. escaping never works cause it always just back fires at least twice as much.
my over-analytical and selling myself short personality doesn't help. i think way too much and figure i should let some sh*t go but i never do. it's dumb i know, but thats who i am. man this stuff is too deep to keep goin into detail with it.
anyways all i have been up to lately is school and snowboarding. i have never rode so much powder in my life these past 3 weeks. its the best thing ever seeing as in the east were always deprived of nice fluffy snow. and in school i got a midterm back for english class. and it was 100! how i did this i have no clue because they were all short answer questions that were opinion based (teacher's opinion obviously). i was pretty stoked. and the mid term for today, well im hopin for anything higher than a C but it probably won't happen. i guess i just need to set priorities better. live a lil healthier. and know my limits.