Then wake within a freezing sweat
Life is weird right now... it's so hard to find who i am right now, i don't know who i am, my life is a facade. i put it on everyday, and throughout the days that pass by i look for me... the real me.. not the exterior... but i am tired of looking, i tired of looking for me, i am tired of looking for someone who i can hold close and feel the safest with, knowing nothing can hurt when i am with her, i am tired of looking at picture of my brother and knowing he isn't coming back.... looking for or at any of these things makes me want to just punch the wall.... i am tired of the way people dress and act..... guys in tight shirts and girl pants, cussing like no other, girls wearing clothing which almost shows everything, their short skirts and their shirts that show off their bra's... let me tell you something, i am going to respect a female more if she is wearing a shirt that covers eveything and pants more that a girl is dressed in the fashion of today.... if you dress like you want respect, you are going to get it, but your not going to get it if you look like you don't care about your body... because thats how some guys are going to treat you......... i want someone to hold, to walk down the beach with, holding hand, or just sitting on a blanket and watching the sun set.... where is she.... where?