Back? from Switzerland
Feel kind of lost now... not sure enough where is my home now... well.. let me explain..
It's exactly what I have been dreaming about...to live like that.. right..but...it's....it's hard.. I can't feel at home anymore.. I mean when I'm in Moscow I'm so snowed under that I don't have time to feel it... to feel at home.. simply don't have time!! ... cause it's always so little time and SO much to do...to manage...
After more than a month in my US-Canada trip I had just 2 weeks at home..then almost 3 weeks in Switzerland in August and then 3 weeks at home and then 1 week at the Black See, then 3 weeks at home and then Switzerland again for 2 weeks and then... now...I'm at home now....but that's more like.. switching the planes somewhere... i mean that's more about rushing, studying superhard to catch up with everything .. without any sleep at all, figuring out the next trips, different stuff about sponsors, some shit about documents and visas, some stress about scheduling, managing to visit some doctors, grabbing the salary, giving back some books to the libraries and other stuff like that... trying to see some friends I really need to be with once in a blue moon, trying to spend some more time with my beloved family and more and more things I wanna do here.... so much to do.. and....and I haven't seen my brother for about a month by now after all!!!! just cause of all that! and .... aaaaahh...... superfuckinghard to explain!!! Of course that's exactly what I always wanted!!!! To live this life this way!!! Sure it is!!! And I love my damn life so much!!!! But I wanna feel home... And I've lost such feeling recently... I'm like stuck in the middle of nowhere... And I feel lonely... cause of that.. I really do..
and I'm counting the days that I still have for being at home like I used to do during my trips... so now I have about a week before the leaving my sweetest home for a month again..
