its just something i had to do..

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well.. as most of you know. austin and i broke up. i did it. it was awful. if your reading this austin.. im so sorry. i just started to feel like we were becoming one person.. and i had lost my identity. i relied on him way to much.. and i need to learn how to be independent.and its so scary.. but unfortunately the only way to do this was be selfish and leave him. it hurts me. and i know its hurting him.

i need to make a new lj.. so if anyone has an idea for a new name for me -- let me know.

please leave comments.. i need to feel better right now more then ever.

thanks to everyone whos been so supportive.. rach and petar who came over. and joe who just listened to me for like an hour.. everyone else-- i love you and im so lucky to have so many ppl care about me.