Christmas joy?
I don't look foward to Christmas anymore ever since my parents divorced it really has no more meaning. Yeah whoopie doo I get presents!? I miss waking up to my father saying "Baby go wake up wake up Santa brought you your presents!" And I get up wearing my barnie pajamas and my brother wearing his Ninja Turtle Jammies. Waking up to a tree loaded with every toy you can imagine big boxes,little boxes,moving boxes!! It was amazing.. now it's like ooo 200 dollars and oh hey a purse.I promised myself if God blesses me with a family I will give them the best Christmas every year that they are alive! Little things like that you miss. Which is why Easter is my favorite holiday I get to spend it with ALL my moms side of the family and we play games,a huge easter egg hunt and all sorts of fun things. The adults play too which makes it even more fun. So yeah Christmas should be okay this year..Matthew told me he got me the best gift ever!?!? So he says... he told me NO ONE can top his gift? ah.. I wonder what it is.. suspense KILLS! Hmm I'm expecting a good good friend Saturday he's coming home from college for CHRISTMAS ! It's kinda exciting he's been their for me through some really tough times and yeah. So I'm looking foward to Christmas sorta just eh I don't know I don't feel the Christmas joy. Call me a Scrudge eh?
Hmm what else.. as everyone knows I DELETED MY MYSPACE!! WTF, OMG ,ZOMG.. yeah.. I deleted it.. I really kinda sorta not really lol regret deleting it. It was ruining things with Matthew and I so I needed to patch things up somehow. So what better way to make him happy than deleting the damn mother fuck. 4,154 and 100 comments on each picture lol.. yeapp all went to shit. I had that thing since liek 2004 and met some AMAZING people I kid you not. It's crazy how such a website came about and how it plays such a role in ones life. Myspace is a relationship ruiner that's a known fact it ruins and it kills and it's just a mess! He's happier now that it's gone.. I'm glad but I feel eh I don't know I did so much for him and I still get that attitude he shows to me. He can be so mean to me sometime. He's jealousy is outrageous which is why I deleted it. He couldn't help that a guy thought I was attractive. Like seriously common' I'm HIS girlfriend his pictures were up EVERYWHERE on my profile what more can he ask for right? Like shouldn't he be happy that guy think I'm pretty and that he has me?Gosh men these days..He makes me so frustrated sometime..ah I don't know but things are getting better I think? Am I stupid for deleting it? I'm getting more sleep now.. but now it's like we don't talk cause I fall asleep. He couldn't delete his due to the fact that when he made his profile he used a fake email so he changed his password to something he can't remember so he cant log in and I know that's true cause he hasn't logged in since. But he still has his music side project profile and his stupid ex bitch is on their.. BLEH..but yeah...
Hey Marg Im so disappointed that you didn't try out.. I know you can do it.. no matter what ANYONE says..
Eh well Im gonna go Im in the Go center pouring out my soul Ill update the rest later...
xoxoxoox
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Hmm what else.. as everyone knows I DELETED MY MYSPACE!! WTF, OMG ,ZOMG.. yeah.. I deleted it.. I really kinda sorta not really lol regret deleting it. It was ruining things with Matthew and I so I needed to patch things up somehow. So what better way to make him happy than deleting the damn mother fuck. 4,154 and 100 comments on each picture lol.. yeapp all went to shit. I had that thing since liek 2004 and met some AMAZING people I kid you not. It's crazy how such a website came about and how it plays such a role in ones life. Myspace is a relationship ruiner that's a known fact it ruins and it kills and it's just a mess! He's happier now that it's gone.. I'm glad but I feel eh I don't know I did so much for him and I still get that attitude he shows to me. He can be so mean to me sometime. He's jealousy is outrageous which is why I deleted it. He couldn't help that a guy thought I was attractive. Like seriously common' I'm HIS girlfriend his pictures were up EVERYWHERE on my profile what more can he ask for right? Like shouldn't he be happy that guy think I'm pretty and that he has me?Gosh men these days..He makes me so frustrated sometime..ah I don't know but things are getting better I think? Am I stupid for deleting it? I'm getting more sleep now.. but now it's like we don't talk cause I fall asleep. He couldn't delete his due to the fact that when he made his profile he used a fake email so he changed his password to something he can't remember so he cant log in and I know that's true cause he hasn't logged in since. But he still has his music side project profile and his stupid ex bitch is on their.. BLEH..but yeah...
Hey Marg Im so disappointed that you didn't try out.. I know you can do it.. no matter what ANYONE says..
Eh well Im gonna go Im in the Go center pouring out my soul Ill update the rest later...
xoxoxoox
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