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[i_think_2_much]

Sometimes, or rather more often than not, I am just tired. tired of feeling like a failure, tired of not being able to make everyone around me fully happy. I'm tired of people not being able to get along with every one else, tired of me not being able to get along with everyone else. i'm tired of gas prices, tired of school, and yet, tired of

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[armirealainn]

So The Other Day I Went To Class Early To Make Sure My Paper Was Handed In On Time. I Was In A Crappy Mood & Honestly Was Not Thrilled With The Idea Of Being To Class 15 Minutes Earlier Than The Time I Knew My Friends Would Even Be Getting Out Of Theirs. So I Walk In The Door Of The Building & The First Thing I See Is You, Sitting At A Table, Dabbling In One Of Your Text Books, & I Had To Attempt To Hide My Smile So The People Around Me Didn't Think I Was A Complete Freak. My Mood Was Lifted & I Was So Happy To See You. I Semi-Sat On The Floor Because I Have Very High Shoes On & Felt As If I Were Towering Over You As You Sat. Soon My Feet Began To Ache So I Stood Up, & Although You Were In A Chair, You Stood Up Too... & You Stayed Standing While We Talked. I Noticed... & I Wanted To Hug The Hell Out Of You For It. As I Was Listening To You Talk I Was Thinking "Wow, She Is Such A Genuine Person..." & You Talked About Dylan & How Happy He Makes You & I Was Thinking "I Am So Glad. She Deserves All The Happiness In The World..." Then You Began Talking About Not Having A Job (Which, For The Record, I Just Quit My First One, That I Obtained For A Month At The Age Of Eighteen) & How It Made You Feel Unproductive... But That You Are The Leader Of So Many Things Involving Church, & You Are Taking What I Refer To As "The Smart People Classes I Can Only Dream About." You're Right, You Do Have Things To Be Thankful For, But That Doesn't Change How You Feel... & Dwelling Over How It Should Will Only Make You Feel Worse, Correct? You Are A Beautiful Girl Lindsey. You Are Smart, You Are Successful, & You Are Not Only In Love, But Loved In Return By That Person & Many Others. You Have So Much To Offer & So Much On Your Plate For Yourself That Just The Thought Alone Of You Wishing You Were Also Juggling A Job Blows Me Away. I Know From Experience How Other People's Words Can Make You Feel Better But Not Change The Situation Of Your Feelings Completely, But For Some Reason I Am Still Making The Attempt... & If I Make You Feel Better, Then It Is More Than Worth It. Although We're Not As Close As I Would Love To Be, I Think That We Have A Nice Bond. I Would Do Anything For You, Even If It's Been Unspoken, & I Know You've Got Me Too. You're An Amazing Person Lindsey, & I Can Only Hope That You Realize That. For Such A Small Girl, I Sure Do Look Up To You. Love Always, Kelly.