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So...
I'm exhausted. Not in a bitchy, everyone console me type of way - I don't care that I'm exhausted, really - more in a curious, I can't stay awake way. I keep trying to set my alarm for six hours of sleep and keep sleeping right through it. My bodies way of telling me "hey dude, we need to chill out a little". Byproduct of spending 10 straight weeks getting 12-15 hours of sleep total between Sunday and Tuesday of every week.
By in large, I've been in a good mood for longer than I've probably ever been at once. Some women at school - or so I was told - said "wow, he looks younger for some reason". I wasn't excited or anything, it's a dumb compliment, but I was excited about what it meant: I realized it's probably b/c I'm actually smiling on a regular basis. How about that. Had you told me I would be able to spend a week w/o resenting the world a couple of years ago I would never have believed you.
I spent way too much money in Columbus stocking up on my favorite Columbus Brewing Company products. Pale ales normally give me big headaches - I hate most IPAs - but CBC's one is one of my favorites.
I've been dating a little, but am looking forward to maybe dating some more in the next year? Who the fuck knows? I may not resent the world as much, but I do still resent women at times. Shrugs. An ancillary of being a sensitive or thoughtful man - you just aren't attractive to women, and you often are placed in the unenviable role of playing Captain Transition Boyfriend, which, btw, feels great. I'm working on the resentment, and have simply walked away from several possible transition situations, so hopefully the next few years hold some positive experiences to bump out the negative ones.
Don't let that fool you though. I don't sit around mulling over previous dating pain - I don't have time and also don't care that much right now.
I secured an internship for next year at the state inpatient facility. I'm excited about it, for several reasons:
- it pays a little, unusual for psych internships
- my supervisor does not like pathologizing people, and also doesn't like CBT all that much. His thoughts agreed with mine - when CBT works it isn't for the reasons the therapists who use it think it does (this is part of a long running debate over therapy technique for you non-psych people. If you're curious go to wikipedia and type in "cognitive behavioral therapy", "interpersonal therapy", "gestalt therapy", and "acceptance and commitment therapy" for some examples. Then look at "dodo bird verdict")
- I beat out the various local clinical applicants, score one for the counseling psychologists
- Working with the most deeply troubled people in the state will help me a lot when trying to help people in community settings, so I'm really going to value the experience conceptualizing problems
- I managed to tie my appraisal methods class to the internship
So things are well, but I need a several day sleep break. Also would like a reading break. Have a massive backlog of my own stuff, both serious and not serious.
I'm exhausted. Not in a bitchy, everyone console me type of way - I don't care that I'm exhausted, really - more in a curious, I can't stay awake way. I keep trying to set my alarm for six hours of sleep and keep sleeping right through it. My bodies way of telling me "hey dude, we need to chill out a little". Byproduct of spending 10 straight weeks getting 12-15 hours of sleep total between Sunday and Tuesday of every week.
By in large, I've been in a good mood for longer than I've probably ever been at once. Some women at school - or so I was told - said "wow, he looks younger for some reason". I wasn't excited or anything, it's a dumb compliment, but I was excited about what it meant: I realized it's probably b/c I'm actually smiling on a regular basis. How about that. Had you told me I would be able to spend a week w/o resenting the world a couple of years ago I would never have believed you.
I spent way too much money in Columbus stocking up on my favorite Columbus Brewing Company products. Pale ales normally give me big headaches - I hate most IPAs - but CBC's one is one of my favorites.
I've been dating a little, but am looking forward to maybe dating some more in the next year? Who the fuck knows? I may not resent the world as much, but I do still resent women at times. Shrugs. An ancillary of being a sensitive or thoughtful man - you just aren't attractive to women, and you often are placed in the unenviable role of playing Captain Transition Boyfriend, which, btw, feels great. I'm working on the resentment, and have simply walked away from several possible transition situations, so hopefully the next few years hold some positive experiences to bump out the negative ones.
Don't let that fool you though. I don't sit around mulling over previous dating pain - I don't have time and also don't care that much right now.
I secured an internship for next year at the state inpatient facility. I'm excited about it, for several reasons:
- it pays a little, unusual for psych internships
- my supervisor does not like pathologizing people, and also doesn't like CBT all that much. His thoughts agreed with mine - when CBT works it isn't for the reasons the therapists who use it think it does (this is part of a long running debate over therapy technique for you non-psych people. If you're curious go to wikipedia and type in "cognitive behavioral therapy", "interpersonal therapy", "gestalt therapy", and "acceptance and commitment therapy" for some examples. Then look at "dodo bird verdict")
- I beat out the various local clinical applicants, score one for the counseling psychologists
- Working with the most deeply troubled people in the state will help me a lot when trying to help people in community settings, so I'm really going to value the experience conceptualizing problems
- I managed to tie my appraisal methods class to the internship
So things are well, but I need a several day sleep break. Also would like a reading break. Have a massive backlog of my own stuff, both serious and not serious.