he was supposed to be different.

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but he's not. Why should he have been?

I'm so sick of him breaking promises, he says hes so worried about me, but he won't call me back, and he promised again and again to send me an important email yesterday, but did i get an email? of course not.

Why does this always happen to me?I am so sick of guys breaking my heart. This is why I resolved not to date... that lasted what 4 days?

But I'm too afraid to dump him, partly for fear that I'll never find a guy that wants to date me again, or for fear that things might get better and that I'm not giving it enough time. I mean his dad did just die like 3 weeks ago. I gotta give him some slack there.

ANd now, we've been planning on spending Saturday night together for two weeks, he says he might babysit instead.

What's happening to us? What's happening to my boyfriend?

But James is being so great. He calls me back and we talk, and we've decided that we're going to end up getting married someday. He's the one thats been stopping the tears.. not Ben. He's the one that calls me just to say, "I love you Sheila. Don't do anything stupid."

I want my boyfriend back.