The trees the breeze, what could be better...
Its perfect, so perfect an i dont think anyone will understand what i mean. This time last year i was living with my cousin, i hated my mom, i despised my dad, I didnt really have a 'set' home, and i was passed around from family member to family member, the only thing i know is that Patricia was there. She made it so much better, i was depressed but last year was the best year ive had. I went through some tough things and she always helped, and vis-versa. If any of you are wondering why we are so close, thats the reason. when we were youger patricia didnt like me and i always made fun of how she was, when i came home from canada we were both ALOT different. The my mom left me at her house ( i dont hate my mom anymore) but patricia and i were excited ( we grew close-ish over that summer) at first it was weird though we didnt know what to do, i mean i slept on her floor, it was awkward around her parents and my parents. slowly hough we relaxed, she losened up and stopped being so bitchy and such a perfectionist and i stopped being a blunt/brat/bitch/man.
anyways
i was with this phsyco guy that im stil not over and she was there, she was with a phsyco guy and i was there, we had a hairspray/food/moose war, we got in trouble for everything thinkable, it was wonderful.
I think that this season and this weather hold a special meaning to me now, when i sit outside ( inmytree!!) all i can remember is my friends from last year, patricia, and how we would run around outside in the dark, or leave the house when she got mad at her parents (alot- we were cranky last year kinda) how it felt when we would walk around in our pj's at night to see christman lights, the crunchiness of the leaves the way eerything looked and felt, it felt so horrible but SO good all at the same time, i was sad but it was the happiest time ever ( this is whyi dont think you will understand) I miss all the kids i hung out with last year, out of SO many people i only talk to a few people that now go to Humble High School, that would be Felix, Garrett, Brooke, and Sue. I have my friends this year but im telling you ..it doesnt feel the same.
im now living with my mom and step dad, its not right...it doesnt feel as excellent as last year.
i grew up alot last year too i learned what life is like, i learned that i actually have to be aware of what happens in the 'adult' world, i have to start caring about politics and what happens to our country (though i dont care for it tht much) i have to..i dont know...grow up..thats another reason it feels weird, i have to start growing up and i know it, but i dont want to face that fact,i miss patricia and my friends, i miss the people that helped me grow up, go from and immature little girl, to the person i am today, and i want to thank everyone ahead of time for helping me grow up even more this year and the next and the next...just...thank you Patricia an i talk about politics alot now and we have started to care and take part in our community i talk to brooke and sue and felix and garrett about life, i just dont know, this weather makes me nostalgic it really does
the weather is so perfect and im so happy it has come again, but i feel...incomplete...like im lacking something that i had lastyear, i dont know, dont ask me
bleh.
sorry this is so long
<3Leah
anyways
i was with this phsyco guy that im stil not over and she was there, she was with a phsyco guy and i was there, we had a hairspray/food/moose war, we got in trouble for everything thinkable, it was wonderful.
I think that this season and this weather hold a special meaning to me now, when i sit outside ( inmytree!!) all i can remember is my friends from last year, patricia, and how we would run around outside in the dark, or leave the house when she got mad at her parents (alot- we were cranky last year kinda) how it felt when we would walk around in our pj's at night to see christman lights, the crunchiness of the leaves the way eerything looked and felt, it felt so horrible but SO good all at the same time, i was sad but it was the happiest time ever ( this is whyi dont think you will understand) I miss all the kids i hung out with last year, out of SO many people i only talk to a few people that now go to Humble High School, that would be Felix, Garrett, Brooke, and Sue. I have my friends this year but im telling you ..it doesnt feel the same.
im now living with my mom and step dad, its not right...it doesnt feel as excellent as last year.
i grew up alot last year too i learned what life is like, i learned that i actually have to be aware of what happens in the 'adult' world, i have to start caring about politics and what happens to our country (though i dont care for it tht much) i have to..i dont know...grow up..thats another reason it feels weird, i have to start growing up and i know it, but i dont want to face that fact,i miss patricia and my friends, i miss the people that helped me grow up, go from and immature little girl, to the person i am today, and i want to thank everyone ahead of time for helping me grow up even more this year and the next and the next...just...thank you Patricia an i talk about politics alot now and we have started to care and take part in our community i talk to brooke and sue and felix and garrett about life, i just dont know, this weather makes me nostalgic it really does
the weather is so perfect and im so happy it has come again, but i feel...incomplete...like im lacking something that i had lastyear, i dont know, dont ask me
bleh.
sorry this is so long
<3Leah