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[killbuddha]

[Filtered to Hakkai, Goku, and Kougaiji]

Oi, Goku, Hakkai, get over here right now.

We're going to try to get off this damn island if it's the last thing we do. We've stayed here long enough; by now it's more than just an extended, annoyingly long detour.

It's fucking intolerable.

((Attempting to break the barrier post get. It'll undoubtedly end

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[teargem]

*and Yukina is just going to be slumped against convenient tree in case anyone needs her, JUST A LITTLE DRAINED*

[houtou_prince]

*pushing himself up to check on her*

Yukina...? Are you okay?

[teargem]

*quite frankly, no, but she's not going to say that*

...... *so she's just not saying anything*

[houtou_prince]

*now he's really worried - getting up and half-staggering over to her*

Yukina? Okita said he would take you home.

[teargem]

....

Did you... honestly think it would hurt me less if you did this without telling me about it? *yes, this is genuine but tired anger*

[houtou_prince]

... *startled by her anger - just kind of collapsing to the ground near her*

... No. I knew I was going to hurt you no matter what I did.

[teargem]

... Then why did you give that letter to Ky-san? Just why was it so hard to tell me without having to resort to a messenger?

*softly, but she's trying REALLY hard not to cry* Do you know not once has anyone ever told me goodbye?? They just vanished from my life, just like that a-and you were going to do the exact same thing!

[houtou_prince]

Because just seeing me seemed to hurt you. Because I've already caused you enough pain without making you watch me leave you. ... Because I didn't think I'd have the strength to leave you behind if you were here.

*there's nothing he can say to defend himself from that*

I'm sorry.

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[teargem]

........

...................

You...

Didn't you realize that not letting me watch you leave was going to hurt me more?? That by... not letting me see you for the last time, not knowing that the last time I saw you... really was the last time...?! I told you I understood, didn't I? I knew! And yet you still...

.... *oh god, she's exhausted but still very much fierce right now* Of course it's going to hurt! You can't protect me from pain all of the time, because.... because--!

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[teargem]

.........

Because I accepted the pain when I realized I loved you!!

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[houtou_prince]

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[houtou_prince]

...

[houtou_prince]

You're right. I didn't think and I was wrong. I'm sorry.

I've done nothing but hurt you and I don't deserve... *choking on the words*

I don't deserve your love.

[teargem]

..... *sighs, leaning back against the tree* You've done a lot more than that and you know it.

.... and don't you think I ought to be the one who says whether you deserve my love or not? ... Unless you just don't want it at all, then I can understand....

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[houtou_prince]

*finally looking at her again*

I would have to be more of a fool than I already am to not want you to love me. But after what I did...

*shaky breath, because it's starting to hit him that they failed, and he can't go home*

[houtou_prince]

... *and he's just staring at the ground now, because if he can't get home then he can't help his mother, but he's also a little glad that he can't leave, and that's even more guilt compounded on top of everything else*

I'm sorry... *and he's not even sure who he's saying that to anymore*