Thinking Never Seems To Help
how come the contemplative face is smiling, usually when someone is
thinking, especially deep thinking, its usually not good or happy, i
dunno maybe thats just my pessimism talking...
...anyways...Tonight i noticed how im not a very talkitive person. I've always known its hard for me to talk to people but like i cant talk to anyone about anything. Like if i have a certain feeling or belief of something how i can never open up to anyone (but like 5 people) about it. I just dont think its good to keep it inside because then its turned into rage and i dont need any of that but if i wanted to tell someone this I FEEL AS IF THEY WILL GET MAD WHEN I DO AND MY PESSIMISM COMES BACK SO I DONT TELL THEM BECAUSE I THINK IF I DO EVERYTHING WILL BE MESSED UP. I dunno but thats just how i feel and i really wish i did talk more cause sometimes i have good or funny things to say i just get to paranoid about them. O well hopefully i can open up to like 1 or 2 certain people about things b/c i think that it might affect them some but i dunno...I also wish certain people would open up more to me at times because i really want to know how they are feeling and why and if i can help but people seem to just be like "i dunno" or something when people try to talk to them more (i do it too but EVERYONE else does to)...
...I also hate implicity, whether its with derivatives or when soemone is telling you something and they are implying that you are bad at it or that you should be more like this without actually telling you this straight to your face ( that whole little paragraph just contradicted this entry kind, almost)...
...That's all...c-ya...
...anyways...Tonight i noticed how im not a very talkitive person. I've always known its hard for me to talk to people but like i cant talk to anyone about anything. Like if i have a certain feeling or belief of something how i can never open up to anyone (but like 5 people) about it. I just dont think its good to keep it inside because then its turned into rage and i dont need any of that but if i wanted to tell someone this I FEEL AS IF THEY WILL GET MAD WHEN I DO AND MY PESSIMISM COMES BACK SO I DONT TELL THEM BECAUSE I THINK IF I DO EVERYTHING WILL BE MESSED UP. I dunno but thats just how i feel and i really wish i did talk more cause sometimes i have good or funny things to say i just get to paranoid about them. O well hopefully i can open up to like 1 or 2 certain people about things b/c i think that it might affect them some but i dunno...I also wish certain people would open up more to me at times because i really want to know how they are feeling and why and if i can help but people seem to just be like "i dunno" or something when people try to talk to them more (i do it too but EVERYONE else does to)...
...I also hate implicity, whether its with derivatives or when soemone is telling you something and they are implying that you are bad at it or that you should be more like this without actually telling you this straight to your face ( that whole little paragraph just contradicted this entry kind, almost)...
...That's all...c-ya...