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Mar 31, 2004 21:28

What is it with me and my friends lately? I know they're nice people, and I really appreciate what they have done for me when I'm in a bad time, or just the times we spend together. But sometimes I feel a large need for some space. It's like I'm supposed to do certain things.. Like spend every break with them, or walk to every class with them.

I don't even really know what I want, I just know I want to be myself and not just one of those girls that always walk together everywhere. I don't know why, or how it came suddenly (well suddenly, it's been here longer), but it feels like I don't need that anymore. I don't nee dpeople to accompany me everywhere I go anymore. But yes, sometimes I do like it, just not as a standard, I want to be able to choose.

I don't even know why I'm this frustrated about it at the moment.

I realised yesterday night, that I probably won't be able to see Thijs this weekend, because of something I have to finish for school and 2 party's I have to attend. But Thijs and I are doing good, when we see eachother it's really enjoyable, and you can read on his face that he loves me. It's such a beautiful thing :). I just sometimes miss his smiles, his arms around me, our talks, during the time that I'm not with him. But I shouldn't complain, Tuesday isn't that bad.

A hug and a kiss for Thijs.
(I know I don't usually do this in my diary, but I felt that it's right. I was even so excited to speak to him for 10 minutes online, because I didn't count on it, now that the computer downstairs broke down).

Iris
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