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brixton is a hottie
so i only work 20 hours a week now which is pretty much driving me crazy. i feel absolutely useless and i'm not making enough money to pay our ridiculous utility bills. i'm going to start doing wednesday nights on the floor as a stylist (finally!) which i'm excited about but will complicate our schedule even more. and our complicated schedule is starting to take a toll on our relationship (which was pretty messed up to start with)... mostly because we're both mentally and emotionally exhausted. and i'm still, and always will be, slightly crazy. and he still thrives on attention from other girls. i'd like to think i'm all he needs but it's never enough, i guess. i try to get out and see my friends but that creates other problems... i just can't win. brixton is probably the most perfect thing in my life right now. babies are easy, it's life that is hard. things will get better, i'm sure. but then they will inevitably get worse again. my life is a rollercoaster. and i hate rollercoasters.