I think it's a particularly...if not African-American thing, then a minority thing. You know, the days where you just wake up and you're fucking angry at the world because you feel like...
...a jungle bunny.
A spade.
A nigger.
And then you want to punch whitey's face in.
Okay, so after getting over my initial shock that New Orleans was essentially turned into Lake Ponchartrain...I then started following the reports of what was going on.
And, basically, it was "Welcome to Mogadishu, Louisiana. Enjoy your stay."
And, of course, it's extremely, extremely tempting to pin the blame entirely on the federal government for fucking this up. Especially since government policy has been essentially to say "Fuck you!" to anyone who doesn't agree 100%.
To be honest, though? As vindicating as it was to hear Mayor Nagin and even Kanye West tell the governemt to go fuck themselves, it's not entirely Dubya's fault. (Though, uh. I'm a self-respecting liberal. Of course I'm going to blame the Bush Administration for screwing shit up.)
New Orleans got fucked harder than a Japanese schoolgirl. The local governments didn't do much to help the matter - with everyone essentially being herded into two places.
And then conditions in and of themselves didn't make things much better. I mean, uh. It's sorta hard to deliver goods to the middle of a lake.
Not only that, there's actually been newspaper articles that mentioned this situation. A National Geographic one, and then there was a Times-Picayune. And even FEMA foresaw this.
So, really, I can't entirely fault the federal government for fucking up New Orleans in good conscience. (Anymore.)
What is the problem, then? Even I can't exactly specify it. Wait, I can.
It just seems like the federal government is going through the motions of being helpful, because if it seems like they do, that'll boost their ratings. There just seems to be a lack of humanity there that's pissed a lot of people off.
And, I don't know if I should even be faulting him for being like that. I myself can be like that - I'll get torn up over the smallest things, but when it's the big one, I can be strangely stoic. I'll beat myself up over only being able to cry when it's not needed.
At that, I don't think anyone could be emotionally prepared for something like Hurricane Katrina. Aside from the fact that a wide swath of three states is obliterated, among them a major city...it looked exactly like a scene you'd see on an infomercial of some far-off African country decimated by civil war.
Except it's right next door. People in the United States lived amidst their own shit for nearly a week, on national television. And many people involved have laid themselves bare - there was a video of a little boy detailing his frustration with the entire situation that nearly made me cry. Not to mention the local Powers That Be.
In the end, maybe the problem wasn't only that the feds arrived too late because they were just niggers. I think, at least for me, it tapped into my fear that the government doesn't truly care because they're niggers. And if they don't give a shit about my people down in the Big Easy, why should they care about me?
In that light, it's easy to see the outrage that's come up. Not only did Katrina shatter the Gulf States, the aftermath also shook whatever trust many of us had in the Powers That Be.
And yes, I used the "n-word" repeatedly and casually. Deal.