don't you forget about me
pairing: kyuhyun/sungmin
rating: pg
genre: angst
length: 778 words
summary: “I’ll hang a wish for you,” kyuhyun says, and sungmin smiles.
They’re back again, back in this place of little warmth, this place where human emotions are rarely shown and an indifferent mask of stone-cold professionalism is all you’ll ever see on people’s faces. The doctors and nurses bustle from ward to ward, trying to save lives, heal injuries and cure diseases, but they’ve learnt early on not to feel anything for their patients. Too often, they get attached, but all too often patients leave - either they recuperate and exit the hospital to go back to their normal lives, forgetting about their saviours, or they drift out of this world and float into the next. Kyuhyun sighs - this isn’t how he wanted to spend his birthday, but he’s also sure that there’s nowhere he’d rather be instead of here. Steeling himself, he grips the metal handle of the door and pushes forward.
"Hey, Sungmin." he says, voice shattering the silence of the room. Still, he's glad it did - the silence had been tense, filled with unspoken worries and fears. Sungmin turns to the right to face him, a delicate figure in the seemingly vast expanse of the hospital bed. Kyuhyun's heart stutters when did he become so pale, the eyebags under his eyes so heavy? 's startling to see the contrast of his black hair against his ashen skin and the contrast of the dark purple eyebags against a faded face. In fact, it's downright frightening, but nothing kyuhyun says or does can stop it. There's nothing he can do or say to halt the increasingly rapid progress of Sungmin's disease, and his heart breaks a little more every time he sees Sungmin face away.
"Hey, kyuhyun. happy birthday." Still, no matter how exhausted Sungmin is from undergoing chemotherapy, he always greets Kyuhyun with a smile. Granted, it's not his old dazzling, enchanting grin, but it's Sungmin smiling all the same, so Kyuhyun will take whatever he can get.
"Thanks, min. another year older, though. I'll be ancient soon!" Sungmin laughs, but his giggles soon turn into a hacking, sporadic cough, one that sounds like it's rattling his bones and turning him inside out.
"You won't forget about me when I'm gone, will you?" Sungmin whispers, entwining his fingers with Kyuhyun's. His fingers fit perfectly in the spaces between Kyuhyun's, just like Sungmin was made for him. they've been Sungmin-and-Kyuhyun since, in love with each other for as long as they could remember. Of course, that just means it's doubly bitter for them to have to separate this early. Kyuhyun's words (don't be so pessimistic, you'll beat this disease hands-down) die on his tongue the moment Sungmin meets his eyes, and he looks down, defeated.
"No, never. it's impossible to forget someone who gave you so much to remember, after all."
"That's good, though. At least you won't forget me. I won't forget you, either," Sungmin smiles sweetly, all the goodness and sunshine in his smile brightening up the dreary room. something in Kyuhyun's throat hitches, a lump forming and his eyes burning - he'll never see Sungmin smile elsewhere, nowhere but this horrible hospital room, nowhere but this prison till the end of his days.
"I'll hang a wish for you, though," Kyuhyun blurts out in desperation, trying so hard to make Sungmin feel a sense of happiness, a sense of determination. Trying to get him to fight back against this enemy which is silently killing him. "I'll find a special star in the night sky and name it after us. I'll make wishes on it and they'll come true, okay?"
Sungmin just smiles again, his head lolling back onto the pristine white pillows. "Okay, Kyuhyun, if you say so."
kyuhyun can't say anything, because if he does, he'll scream and shout and rant to the universe about how unfair everything is. He'll cause a racket in the hospital and the staff will never let him in to visit Sungmin ever again, so he keeps his mouth shut and his fists clenched tight. He needs to be here in the final days, after all. He needs to be here till the very end.
"I love you, sungmin," he says, getting up and making his way to the door. He has to leave now, if not he'll never bring himself to go when he needs to, when he leaves this room for the last time.
"Come back tomorrow, okay?"
"Of course. I love you, Sungmin."
"I love you too, Kyuhyun. Hang a wish on a star for me?"
"Definitely. See you tomorrow, don't you dare go anywhere without me."
"wouldn't dream of it." for you, I'll pull through another day.
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a/n: I love kyumin. I really do. but. :((((((((
p.s. this is my attempt at saying merry christmas. merry christmas, guys!
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