Smash apart what you created.
.....I cried in church today....this isnt normal...who. cries. in. church. WHY would you cry in church. im crazy. thats it im jsut crazy. and then my sister blew up at me. like i needed that. and she got back together with josh. ray wouldnt shut his fat mouth like always at lunch again. meh
then i guess i blew up at my mom. i told her i didnt wanna go shopping. but she asked me again today. n i guess i was rude to her while saying no...and she yelled at me again. telling me shes tired of the way i treat her....but ive been doing better lately witht hat. i just dont get it. i feel like such a horrible daughter sometimes. but its not fair either. the stuff she says to me....ive counted...shes told me she hates me 4 times in the past week. yay im her most hated daughter....
the rocket summer isnt workin for me. neither is hellogoodbye.
well fuck this. i hate letting stuff put me n bad moods. i dont care. i didnt feel anythign todya. and so now im gonna get over it all. cuz its all jsut gay. why let stupid things make me feel like shit. i need to go run.....maybe ill go to church again tonight....i cried, yea but i felt good there at the same time....
love you,
kelly
ps.....ill get in a better mood soon dont worry :-)