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the worst thing so far about my accident, isn't the pain that sometimes wakes me up in the middle of the night. It isn't running out of medication for my shoulder. It's the fact that now I feel stranded. My friends live 15 miles in every direction, and I can't do anything to see them. I have no phone to even talk to someone. I just feel so utterly alone. It's just me. No one to laugh with, no one to smoke with. No one to talk about random shit with. It's just me. I know I have always been a quiet guy, but it almost feels like I've taken a vow of silence. Now more than ever I just want to get away. See something different. See friends that I haven't seen in months. People have told me that they expect me to win a lot of money from this accident. But all I can think of is how long will I have to wait in a place that I hate being in, just to see a couple pennies? Having no one to talk to has made me see the worst in everyone, whether it be a hot and bothered wife, a father who will never change, a brother who respects nothing, a step mother that can't seem to mind her own fucking business, who won't fix the problems that are right there, but create new ones just to bitch about something. Yes, I realize I'm doing no better, this has just become me bitching about my problems, but who else do I have to bitch to? It's just me.