did u ever just wanna let everything u feel out to whoever will listen?
well...
ive really been missing my dad lately...idk why...but i really miss him. I wish that i could make everyone who has a dad realize just how lucky they are...i wish i could have the chance to be "daddys girl"...i would give up my whole world to spend one day with my dad...just to remember what it felt like to have a guy in my life that wud love me no matter what i did wrong, or what i said. I came to the realization a few days ago that i dont remember the sound of my dads voice, or what he smelled like, or how his hair felt, or anything like that. You cant even imagine what it feels like, to know that u dont have anybody to walk u down the aisle on the most important day of your life...and know that when the DJ asks the bride and her father to step forward and dance together, and everyone will look around, but he wont be there. And i cant help but wonder, if he was here...would he be proud of me? or would he hate the person ive become? it scares me.
ive always been able to push the feelings aside, or just think about something else when i would be reminded of him...but not today, idk why...i wish i could forget everything.
ive really been missing my dad lately...idk why...but i really miss him. I wish that i could make everyone who has a dad realize just how lucky they are...i wish i could have the chance to be "daddys girl"...i would give up my whole world to spend one day with my dad...just to remember what it felt like to have a guy in my life that wud love me no matter what i did wrong, or what i said. I came to the realization a few days ago that i dont remember the sound of my dads voice, or what he smelled like, or how his hair felt, or anything like that. You cant even imagine what it feels like, to know that u dont have anybody to walk u down the aisle on the most important day of your life...and know that when the DJ asks the bride and her father to step forward and dance together, and everyone will look around, but he wont be there. And i cant help but wonder, if he was here...would he be proud of me? or would he hate the person ive become? it scares me.
ive always been able to push the feelings aside, or just think about something else when i would be reminded of him...but not today, idk why...i wish i could forget everything.