caffeinated
too much caffeine... now i know why i don't try to drink coffee. sweaty hands, unpleasant combination of hot and cold sweats, and the continuous urge to cry and yet also punch a hole in this brick wall. frustrated that i couldn't get to sleep until 6, didn't get up until after noon and now am really behind in studying for tomorrow's exam. doesn't help that i'm too jittery to focus, and too irritable for dylan to pay any attention to me.
feeling like this makes me wonder why marijuana is illegal and caffeine isn't. i hate feeling like this a lot more than i hate being high (contrastingly, i enjoy feeling relaxed and at peace).
as soon as this is over, i know i'm going to have absolutely no energy to study anymore. not willing to ingest more caffeine, so it looks like i'll be going to sleep a lot earlier than expected. sigh.
being sad is sad.
feeling like this makes me wonder why marijuana is illegal and caffeine isn't. i hate feeling like this a lot more than i hate being high (contrastingly, i enjoy feeling relaxed and at peace).
as soon as this is over, i know i'm going to have absolutely no energy to study anymore. not willing to ingest more caffeine, so it looks like i'll be going to sleep a lot earlier than expected. sigh.
being sad is sad.