grabe na ito.
gosh. kahit sa elchay kinailangan kong magexplain!
im closing this thread dahil feeling ko medyo it's going way out of hand.
to everyone, i would like to thank you for allowing me to express myself on this journal. in fact, i think that is the reason why we are all here: to have a venue for expressing our feelings, emotions, grievances, happiness, and whatever reasons we might still have. and i also believe that having friends and people who know you comment on your thoughts is the cherry on top of this cake, the bonus to all this release.
i didn't know though how much bruhaha this specific entry would cause. i simply wanted to let my friends know of the decision i made of late for a specific time in my life. i didn't realize the enormous pouring out of emotion -- good & bad -- that resulted from anonymous people commenting on my journal, much less having to explain to faceless and nameless people.
it is for this specific reason that i am closing this specific entry, and my journal. it was never my intention to reach the ire of many a few individuals. all i needed was an outlet to release my frustrations and emotions, and not a place where i intentionally awaited for a response to my feelings, or neither was it to seek help for specific grievances.
so:
to all my friends, i will keep you posted.
to all those who've expressed their support, either of my career or simply of my entries, or simply those who have enjoyed reading what i had to write, i would like to extend my many, many thanks for the sweet & encouraging words you have all unselfishly shared, and am hoping i could have another venue to continue giving you a piece of my mind.
and to all those nameless individuals who have expressed their disagreement to what i've had to say, i would also like to make a heartfelt thank you. your comments are invaluable and would definitely contribute to my being a better person, and i would also like to personally apologize if i cannot please everyone of you because that is not my intention. to those who have been dismayed at my "divaness" or attitude towards my work, i hope to explain that professionalism is my only utmost goal, and that i was never in this industry specifically to make friends; the friends that i have gained in the process of my professional work have been the gift that everyone ultimately awaits, yet it is not the reason why i remain in this industry. i am here because i get the job done, and not only do i get the job done right, but i get the job done good. and to those who "used to" admire me but have ceased to admire me now, i do hope that you find someone that you could admire completely and wholeheartedly. admiration is much like friendship: it requires of you the balance to applaude for the good works and to weed out the reasons for the bad ones. true admiration is not fanaticism; it is not based on solely one side of the coin; it asks you to weigh in the difference and with such results not only a better understanding of the object of your admiration but a deeper respect for that specific object. for ultimately, i would rather just have one true admirer who respects me for who i am, rather than a million ones who do not understand me at all; ones who's admiration of my being hangs very loosely on very thin thread, on one specific event.
and if i may quote myself, on that very last entry i made regarding the rerun of ZsaZsa Zaturnnah Ze Muzikal,
"maaapektuhan yung show. pero in a good manner. they will have newer punchlines, and have tighter reign with their lines. the actors that i have worked with in the past run are professionals that exceed the requirements one places against them. they will again shine once more.
so go ahead and watch! and you should support them. as for me, if my busy life permits, i will catch it myself, not only in support of dear friends, or for the nostalgia that was my performance, but simply because i never had the chance to catch such a funny show as a member of the audience and enjoy it as all of you have.
ricci chan.
13 April 2006
im closing this thread dahil feeling ko medyo it's going way out of hand.
to everyone, i would like to thank you for allowing me to express myself on this journal. in fact, i think that is the reason why we are all here: to have a venue for expressing our feelings, emotions, grievances, happiness, and whatever reasons we might still have. and i also believe that having friends and people who know you comment on your thoughts is the cherry on top of this cake, the bonus to all this release.
i didn't know though how much bruhaha this specific entry would cause. i simply wanted to let my friends know of the decision i made of late for a specific time in my life. i didn't realize the enormous pouring out of emotion -- good & bad -- that resulted from anonymous people commenting on my journal, much less having to explain to faceless and nameless people.
it is for this specific reason that i am closing this specific entry, and my journal. it was never my intention to reach the ire of many a few individuals. all i needed was an outlet to release my frustrations and emotions, and not a place where i intentionally awaited for a response to my feelings, or neither was it to seek help for specific grievances.
so:
to all my friends, i will keep you posted.
to all those who've expressed their support, either of my career or simply of my entries, or simply those who have enjoyed reading what i had to write, i would like to extend my many, many thanks for the sweet & encouraging words you have all unselfishly shared, and am hoping i could have another venue to continue giving you a piece of my mind.
and to all those nameless individuals who have expressed their disagreement to what i've had to say, i would also like to make a heartfelt thank you. your comments are invaluable and would definitely contribute to my being a better person, and i would also like to personally apologize if i cannot please everyone of you because that is not my intention. to those who have been dismayed at my "divaness" or attitude towards my work, i hope to explain that professionalism is my only utmost goal, and that i was never in this industry specifically to make friends; the friends that i have gained in the process of my professional work have been the gift that everyone ultimately awaits, yet it is not the reason why i remain in this industry. i am here because i get the job done, and not only do i get the job done right, but i get the job done good. and to those who "used to" admire me but have ceased to admire me now, i do hope that you find someone that you could admire completely and wholeheartedly. admiration is much like friendship: it requires of you the balance to applaude for the good works and to weed out the reasons for the bad ones. true admiration is not fanaticism; it is not based on solely one side of the coin; it asks you to weigh in the difference and with such results not only a better understanding of the object of your admiration but a deeper respect for that specific object. for ultimately, i would rather just have one true admirer who respects me for who i am, rather than a million ones who do not understand me at all; ones who's admiration of my being hangs very loosely on very thin thread, on one specific event.
and if i may quote myself, on that very last entry i made regarding the rerun of ZsaZsa Zaturnnah Ze Muzikal,
"maaapektuhan yung show. pero in a good manner. they will have newer punchlines, and have tighter reign with their lines. the actors that i have worked with in the past run are professionals that exceed the requirements one places against them. they will again shine once more.
so go ahead and watch! and you should support them. as for me, if my busy life permits, i will catch it myself, not only in support of dear friends, or for the nostalgia that was my performance, but simply because i never had the chance to catch such a funny show as a member of the audience and enjoy it as all of you have.
ricci chan.
13 April 2006