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i hate this. i hate this feeling of being so jealous and hurt. he's a guy. guy's get girlfriends. they flirt with friends. in front of your eyes. you knew this would happen sooner or later. stop pretending like it doesn't bug you because you know your crying inside. you just won't let it out. you stuff it in until you really do become sick. and you're mother tells you you look very pale, but you don't have fever. and your dad blames it on the cold that he had a week ago, but you know the real reason. HE'S NOT YOUR BOYFRIEND AND HE NEVER WILL BE. GROW UP!!!!! GROW UP!!!! just grow up.
the little voice in my head tried to make me feel better earlier. i thought hey maybe she's JUST a friend. maybe he thinks she's hot. and maybe they're ONLY friends. but i couldn't beleive that. and even if it's true, he'll have one someday soon. and you're gonna have to learn to act like you're happy for him.
good thing you like acting, because you have to do so much of it all the time.
the little voice in my head tried to make me feel better earlier. i thought hey maybe she's JUST a friend. maybe he thinks she's hot. and maybe they're ONLY friends. but i couldn't beleive that. and even if it's true, he'll have one someday soon. and you're gonna have to learn to act like you're happy for him.
good thing you like acting, because you have to do so much of it all the time.