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Do I miss you? kinda....
never had you, but you had me.
I wouldnt call it missing so much, there's too much understanding to just want it back. I just had a feeling, and i didnt had it before. So when you brought that feeling to me, I had to make room for it, room for you with it.
well, you've moved...cleaned out the place too, you took my best smiles, my hardest laughs and the highest levels of my contentment. I still find little scraps left behind every now and again. I smile, laugh and feel content when I find then, but more at the memory of them then anything. I hold on to those memories.
But you know what would be nice?
To find some filler for the emptiness left in my heart.
time will heal it though.
I didnt have a place for you before you came along, so it must heal itself again.
almost like you loved on command.
I miss the night before you were given a different order.
That was one of my two favorite times with you before that happened.
You did love on command. I wish I was in charge. Wish I held the captains chair, the five star general. Making love, not war.
i did all I could to earn you're love, to deserve, to honor. I understand wht it cannot be tho. I know your reasons, at least one...so Ive no argument there, but your reason for that reason will always seem unfair to meits actually easier if you dont miss me though