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these past 6 months have been a complete blurr and my life has spun around one hundred and fucking eighty degrees since this time last year. i'm turning 18 on friday and i feel as though somehow it will change my life for the better completely. i disobeyed my parents too many times to count on my hands and feet and all of my friends hands and feet. i dont know what happened and i dont know how to change it back, or if i really even want to. i just dont want to fuck myself over in life and college has not been agreeing with me, as much as i try. i'm just not happy with the situation im in, being forced to go to a school that you absolutely hate just sucks. i've been trying to be positive about it but i dont feel like anything is getting better and i just dont know how im going to handle that. my goal as of now is to ace all of these classes that i already went through in high school. no matter how much i just feel like i'm a senior again, i need to do this to prove to myself that i am worth something.