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Ya know, I read a lot, good stuff, bad stuff, makes me cry, makes me laugh, makes me horny, and even sometimes makes me stop for a minute and think about something I'd never considered before. And what is really funny to me is that my work as a front desk clerk for a mid-class motel brings me into contact with some fascinating people, and situations that you don't think you'd ever encounter outside the cover of a book or the click of another web page.
Case in point: just checked in a gentleman who needs a room because his house, located about 4 blocks up the road, just burned down. And that's not the bad news. He and his wife had just gotten back from a hospital out of town where their ten-year-old grandson had gotten out of surgery. Was in a car wreck and the seat belt apparently dug into him and opened up his stomach. I looked into this poor man's eyes as he is telling me this and standing there waiting on his credit card to be approved, and the absolute tiredness, shock, it was just all in his eyes, just hanging on him like an overlay of ..numbness?. You could *see* it in every movement. I mean, imagine getting the news of an accident, the frantic race to get to the hospital, then the soul-numbing waiting, and finally the slight relief in being told that all your grandson's intestines are now back inside where they belong, the tired drive back to your home, knowing that tomorrow you'll be on the road again. Only, when you get there fire trucks are blocking the way, all your neighbors are on their front lawns, and your fucking house is burning. What singled out this particular family, so that when god decided to take a piss he *really* made sure they were just soaked? Sometimes I wonder about life and all the things that happen, things that people coast past like speed bumps and some things that just make you want to lie down in the middle of rush hour traffic. Life's funny sometimes. And I think far too hard about sadness maybe because I've not had any really bad things happen for awhile so I get paranoid and wonder when it's gonna be my turn. Just some ramblings from my twisted brain tonight. I think too damn much and babble too incoherently about it.
Note to self: no posting during 16 hour shifts, brain cells are not in correct operating order.
Case in point: just checked in a gentleman who needs a room because his house, located about 4 blocks up the road, just burned down. And that's not the bad news. He and his wife had just gotten back from a hospital out of town where their ten-year-old grandson had gotten out of surgery. Was in a car wreck and the seat belt apparently dug into him and opened up his stomach. I looked into this poor man's eyes as he is telling me this and standing there waiting on his credit card to be approved, and the absolute tiredness, shock, it was just all in his eyes, just hanging on him like an overlay of ..numbness?. You could *see* it in every movement. I mean, imagine getting the news of an accident, the frantic race to get to the hospital, then the soul-numbing waiting, and finally the slight relief in being told that all your grandson's intestines are now back inside where they belong, the tired drive back to your home, knowing that tomorrow you'll be on the road again. Only, when you get there fire trucks are blocking the way, all your neighbors are on their front lawns, and your fucking house is burning. What singled out this particular family, so that when god decided to take a piss he *really* made sure they were just soaked? Sometimes I wonder about life and all the things that happen, things that people coast past like speed bumps and some things that just make you want to lie down in the middle of rush hour traffic. Life's funny sometimes. And I think far too hard about sadness maybe because I've not had any really bad things happen for awhile so I get paranoid and wonder when it's gonna be my turn. Just some ramblings from my twisted brain tonight. I think too damn much and babble too incoherently about it.
Note to self: no posting during 16 hour shifts, brain cells are not in correct operating order.