Tear-Stained face...
Wow. I have been crying ALL day. In every single period, at break, and at lunch. Wow. I am at a loss for words really. Alice said it all. I am going to miss her SO, SO, SO, SO, SO, SO much. Her entry made me cry even more. I am sitting in Computer class and Mr. Nuss probably thinks we're crazy cuz in 2nd period Alice has this class and she told me she cried like all through it. And now in 8th period he's got another pathetic girl crying. Oh well. As much as I want this year to end...the end scares me so much. I'm gonna be without my best friend for the rest of high school. Two more years without the only person who really understands me. Sure, phone calls are OK, but...what about when I need her RIGHT then? It's not like she can magically appear by my side. I may have Scott, yes, but what happens if/when I don't have him? That leaves me all alone. Yea, there are 127 other people at this school...but...none of them are like Alice. No one to have mental breakdowns with in the library when guys suck, no one who will understand exactly what I'm thinking by only looking at my face, no one to understand Brian Regan like we do...sure, I may make a few other friends, but...that's all they'll be...friends. Alice was like... literally my other half all year long. I only wish we would've gotten this close last year. When things got tough this year, I always had a shoulder to cry on, always had an ear to listen to me, always had a voice to tell me where I went wrong, but to be compassionate at the same time. When I went through some of the TOUGHEST times this year, she was always there for me, even if she didn't fully understand. Even when Michael died, and nobody understood how hard that hit me, but still, I had someone to cry with. Alice didn't even know him, yet she cried just like she'd known him for years. When I was failing Geometry, she stepped up and offered to tutor me, and she turned out to be the most success I had with a tutor in Math. Because of her, I'm no longer failing. I could go on and on and on, and I probably will in another entry closer to time...but...this is about all I can take for right now. My eyes are welling up again, and in 7 minutes the bell will ring, signifying the close of yet another day...and I'm gonna go down to the library and just cry. And I know who will be there crying with me...