bitching about life... it's what i do... annoying isn't it?
"I haven't been this scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared, so here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me"
-from "Going Away to College" by Blink 182
^it inspired this afternoon, on the way home.
life has been like a see saw lately, well atleast my emotions have been. i think it's hormones (any knowledge you could offer up here, Caty? you have gone through alot)
i shouldn't bitch. no one wants to hear it. it's almost as if i'm becoming bipolar, only i think it's something else.
i'm sorry i was shitty earlier, Jared. though you won't read this til a long time from now.
Max is a really good friend. Not that the rest of you aren't, i just never see anyone anymore, not that it's not my fault. I keep fucking up.
i take full responsibility for my actions.
this is a confession.
If life is as Christians say it is, i am going to hell....
god, this song is fucking sublime.
this is a purchase i will not regret, even if Jared gets this cd burned from the net.... irony...
we watched the "I am a golden god!" scene from Almost Famous today at lunch. I AM GETTING THAT MOVIE AT THE VIDEO STORE AND BURNING IT ON THE DVD BURNER!!!!!!!!! it was great. i like movies cause they distract me from my own bitchiness and my personal drama. it put me in SUCH a great mood.
"Russel, why don't you come down and we'll work on those last words"
i am in a bizarre mood, or maybe just flip flopping between them. I've been wearing flip flops and no other shoes for a week or two now...... may be THAT's my problem- flip flops! they must be wreaking my chi!!!!!! jk
i'm setting up a photobucket, so i can out my good photos on the web. my new goal is to finish a roll of film each week. my dad isn't liking the expense... *sigh* atleast he's letting me though. it's my dream.
my photobucket is at: http://photobucket.com/albums/y169/ella_muffin/
thanks for the nickname, anna. i was at a loss at the moment.
i got cds today! The Divorce, Ben Lee and Cracker! woot!
thanks for the snuggles, darling. it was marvelous. sorry i wasn't as nice as i should be.
i love you all very much.
signed,
the (atleast momentarily) emo ella
"this world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me."
And I'm so unprepared, so here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me"
-from "Going Away to College" by Blink 182
^it inspired this afternoon, on the way home.
life has been like a see saw lately, well atleast my emotions have been. i think it's hormones (any knowledge you could offer up here, Caty? you have gone through alot)
i shouldn't bitch. no one wants to hear it. it's almost as if i'm becoming bipolar, only i think it's something else.
i'm sorry i was shitty earlier, Jared. though you won't read this til a long time from now.
Max is a really good friend. Not that the rest of you aren't, i just never see anyone anymore, not that it's not my fault. I keep fucking up.
i take full responsibility for my actions.
this is a confession.
If life is as Christians say it is, i am going to hell....
god, this song is fucking sublime.
this is a purchase i will not regret, even if Jared gets this cd burned from the net.... irony...
we watched the "I am a golden god!" scene from Almost Famous today at lunch. I AM GETTING THAT MOVIE AT THE VIDEO STORE AND BURNING IT ON THE DVD BURNER!!!!!!!!! it was great. i like movies cause they distract me from my own bitchiness and my personal drama. it put me in SUCH a great mood.
"Russel, why don't you come down and we'll work on those last words"
i am in a bizarre mood, or maybe just flip flopping between them. I've been wearing flip flops and no other shoes for a week or two now...... may be THAT's my problem- flip flops! they must be wreaking my chi!!!!!! jk
i'm setting up a photobucket, so i can out my good photos on the web. my new goal is to finish a roll of film each week. my dad isn't liking the expense... *sigh* atleast he's letting me though. it's my dream.
my photobucket is at: http://photobucket.com/albums/y169/ella_muffin/
thanks for the nickname, anna. i was at a loss at the moment.
i got cds today! The Divorce, Ben Lee and Cracker! woot!
thanks for the snuggles, darling. it was marvelous. sorry i wasn't as nice as i should be.
i love you all very much.
signed,
the (atleast momentarily) emo ella
"this world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me."