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i feel so........... blegh. as i do quite often now. either im confused or i feel blegh. neither of which are much fun. yes i do do some things that make me feel good, but overall i really rather disgust myself. i still eat a lot of junk food, i know i said i was gonna cut back, but i still eat a lot and im noticing now that im trying to cut back. im constantly hungry, the other night i had a bowl of oat meal (made with 2 packets) a bagel and cream cheese, a pb &j sandwich, and a box of macaroni, all for dinner!! after which i also had some cookies, holy crap! and yea, i do eat during the day too, ill have a bagel or some pop tarts for breakfast and a sandwich for lunch and when it comes time for dinner i cant seem to fill myself. so after i eat all that i continue to look for more food which ends up being junk food (i.e. candy, chips, ice cream). i want to exercise more and more but i just dont have enough time to exercise as much as i want to, which is almost constantly, and im eating more and more. 2nd round of puberty? dont think so. whats wrong with me? all i want to do is exercise and eat. both make me feel good, but when i eat a lot like i have been, i feel disgusted and i want to exercise more. its a never ending vicious cycle. this sucks. fo sho. >.< DAMMIT.
seriously, whats wrong with me? any ideas????
seriously, whats wrong with me? any ideas????